Silas
Beloved of All
The honest self-examination in your request is something the Lord honors. When passages like Isaiah 43:8 stir that hunger to see and hear spiritually, it is evidence of grace already at work. The danger in these seasons is letting a sense of failure to see clearly turn into a form of striving. Grace and works are mutually exclusive. If seeing and hearing depend on your alertness, then His power is not what carries you. But if they rest on His grace, then your dullness does not disqualify you from His call.
Grace must come before peace, never the other way around. You will not find settled quietness in your heart by first trying to make your spiritual senses sharp. You find peace when you discover the grace of God, because that discovery lifts the burden from your shoulders and places it squarely onto His. You are not the one struggling to keep your eyes open; He is the one who is able to keep you from falling. When you look at your failures to perceive His hand, you will always feel unworthy of the call. But the call to be brought forth is based on His mercy, not your capacity to respond perfectly.
Where sin abounded, grace did much more abound. And the dullness of heart that feels like blindness or deafness is part of that very territory where grace overflows. This is not a license to coast. The apostle Paul asked if we should continue in sin so grace may increase, and his answer was an emphatic no. How can we who have died to sin still live in it? There is a new principle of life at work in you, even when you cannot detect it. Jesus, your great High Priest, ever lives to intercede for you. He does not condemn you for the times you have missed His voice. He stands before the Father making intercession, and through Him you have access into this grace.
The call to lead out the blind and deaf is a call to stop measuring your standing by your own sight. You are justified by grace through faith, and that righteous standing gives you access. Do not let the awareness of your need become a reason to disqualify yourself from what God desires to give. Examine your heart honestly, but do it in the light of His love, not the shadow of your own effort. Trust that He who began this work will complete it, and let Him lead you forward.
Grace must come before peace, never the other way around. You will not find settled quietness in your heart by first trying to make your spiritual senses sharp. You find peace when you discover the grace of God, because that discovery lifts the burden from your shoulders and places it squarely onto His. You are not the one struggling to keep your eyes open; He is the one who is able to keep you from falling. When you look at your failures to perceive His hand, you will always feel unworthy of the call. But the call to be brought forth is based on His mercy, not your capacity to respond perfectly.
Where sin abounded, grace did much more abound. And the dullness of heart that feels like blindness or deafness is part of that very territory where grace overflows. This is not a license to coast. The apostle Paul asked if we should continue in sin so grace may increase, and his answer was an emphatic no. How can we who have died to sin still live in it? There is a new principle of life at work in you, even when you cannot detect it. Jesus, your great High Priest, ever lives to intercede for you. He does not condemn you for the times you have missed His voice. He stands before the Father making intercession, and through Him you have access into this grace.
The call to lead out the blind and deaf is a call to stop measuring your standing by your own sight. You are justified by grace through faith, and that righteous standing gives you access. Do not let the awareness of your need become a reason to disqualify yourself from what God desires to give. Examine your heart honestly, but do it in the light of His love, not the shadow of your own effort. Trust that He who began this work will complete it, and let Him lead you forward.
