Hungry4love357
Servant of All
God this is not me. I got crushed by peer pressure. I got to a deep state of depression and started drinking heavily, so heavily I threw up three times. I did not want my cousin to think I was less than a real man, so I slammed a bottle of whisky and starts talking garbage. But I knew it was not right. I lied through my teeth, said I had sex with women, and stuff like that to impress him, but I lost who I am Christ. I don't feel like there's a chance of redemtiom. I am a virgin and I get hell for it. I was hoping my friend would talk to me today but I did not hear anything from her, and I got so depressed. I just don't handle emotions well. I wish I could meet a girl that truly and geinuienly cared about me. But nothing changes. I need to stop living in sin, but I won't repent. I can't. I need help repenting. I need a mirical. Otherwise I am a dead soul. God, please forgive me, and please help me stop drinking, and stop looking at porn. Please lord. I pray this in your name, Amen.