EAndersen
Prayer Warrior
I'm falling apart and being a little rougher-around-the-edges than normal. I'm tired of finding something to hope for and having to fall through. Just one thing after another, just things going wrong all the time. I've seen no signs, no hope, the only bits of light that have appeared was because I went off the deep end and being rougher apparently makes things easier. I'm not doing things that are wrong, I'm still being really ridiculously kind so don't think that I'm having trouble with my morality. I'm just completely out of hope. I have no strength to go on and no reason to at this point. I've lost everything I love. Every dream I had. God just show yourself for once. Bring my a new love, or a job, or anything literally anything because I can't think of a single lasting good thing that has happened in the last four years. And breathing and existing is not enough. There's no point in breathing if I can't do anything with my gifts, even when I try.
