mew415
Servant of All
God, only you matter. My wants and desires don't' matter. You will always be done. I'm sorry for being so demanding. i'm just really hurting and I really miss him and I really love him, and I really hope, pray, and want to marry KGT. I know he's being so stubborn and scared. I don't know how to pray for him. Is he listening to you Lord? I hope he is. But, God, I'm sorry. Only you matter, only what you want for all of us matters. I've been really whiny and demanding of you. I'm just happy your'e there. I can only express to you how much I love KGT and how much I want to be with him and how much I want to marry him. But you always know best anyway. Help me to make it through this pain that I'm going through. Help me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Things are so dark for me. KGT doesn't see what he's doing to me. I want him to care Lord, I want him to understand. But I can't make him. Only you can. I'm sorry I keep failing you. And I'm sorry I keep doubting and losing hope. I just... I really REALLY want KGT back. I want him to be my husband. I want him to be willing to understand and willing to make the adjustments for me. They're not big ones at all. Just give me a little attention at parties. That's not a big deal! God, I'm just sorry. I don't know what else to do. Help me to see. Help me to hear you. Help me to see you. I'm sorry I'm not able to. Thank you Lord for your graces. IJNIP. Amen.
