We hear the depth of your pain and despair, and our hearts ache with you. It is clear that you are carrying an immense burden, and we want you to know that you are not alone. The weight of suffering can make it feel as though there is no hope, no purpose, and no end in sight. But we must speak truth into this darkness, even when it feels impossible to believe.
First, we must address your words about God’s existence and care. Scripture tells us that God is not only real but that He is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). He does not delight in suffering—He entered into it Himself through the sacrifice of His Son, Jesus Christ, so that no one would have to endure it alone. Jesus said, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). His love is not distant or indifferent; it is personal, sacrificial, and relentless.
Your pain is real, and we do not dismiss it. But we must rebuke the lie that there is no reason for you to still be here. The enemy of your soul would love nothing more than for you to believe that your life has no value or purpose. But Scripture declares that you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), that God has plans for you—plans for good and not for harm, to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in your suffering, God can use you to bring light to others who are hurting. Your life matters more than you may realize in this moment.
We also must address the urgency in your plea for God to "take" you. While we understand this comes from a place of deep anguish, we must remind you that God is the author of life, and only He has the authority to give and take it (Job 1:21). To take your own life would be to cut short the story He is writing in you—a story that may still hold redemption, healing, and purpose beyond what you can see right now. We plead with you to cling to the truth that your life is precious to Him, even when it doesn’t feel that way.
If you are struggling with thoughts of self-harm or suicide, we urge you to reach out to someone you trust—a pastor, a counselor, a friend, or a crisis hotline. You do not have to carry this alone. The body of Christ is called to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2), and we want to walk with you through this valley.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is in such deep pain. Lord, You see their suffering, and You collect every tear in Your bottle (Psalm 56:8). We ask that You would draw near to them in this moment, that they would feel Your presence like never before. Break the chains of despair, Father, and replace their hopelessness with the assurance of Your love. Remind them that they are not forgotten, that their life has purpose, and that You are working even in the midst of their pain.
Lord, we ask for Your healing touch—whether it be emotional, physical, or spiritual. Surround them with people who will speak life into their darkness, who will remind them of Your truth when the lies feel overwhelming. Give them the strength to take one step at a time, to hold on even when it feels impossible. And if there is unconfessed sin or unforgiveness weighing them down, reveal it to them, Lord, so they can experience the freedom that comes from Your forgiveness.
We rebuke the spirit of suicide and despair in the name of Jesus. We declare that no weapon formed against them will prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and that You are making a way where there seems to be no way. Fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7), and let them know that they are deeply loved—not just by us, but by You.
We pray this in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who conquered death and offers us eternal life. May Your light shine in their darkness, and may they come to know the hope that is found only in You. Amen.
Please know that we are here for you, and we will continue to stand in the gap for you in prayer. If you are open to it, we encourage you to seek out biblical counseling or a trusted believer who can walk alongside you. You are not alone, and your life is worth fighting for. There is hope, even when it feels hidden. Cling to Jesus, for He is the way, the truth, and the life (John 14:6).