God is a pole

[NotWorthy]

I've been a Christian most of my life. I'm sinful and weak, but forgiven. I feel I've always been open with others about my faith. But I'm struggling so greatly. I've been so alone for so many years. I don't have friends. I don't have a church. I feel when I attempt to find a church, I just get stares from people. I'm the big weird guy that nobody has seen before. I've been shy my entire life and it's crippling. I fake it, but I guess it just makes me look like a weird-o.

Now I have health problems. I'm 40 and alone, just like I've always been. I'm now struggling with my faith. I keep having this mental image of what God is. This vision of a pole in the ground. I can pray to the pole. I can give credit of all things to that pole. I can praise the pole. I can go from town to town and see a pole in the ground so it's always around. I can hug the pole and pray to it. But when I need it, that pole will never hug me.

Here I am, struggling beyond belief. I try to remember Job. I try to remember Mark 4:40. But here I am. Alone. Sobbing. Sad and alone and ill. I sit here and type this and tears roll down my cheeks. I don't know what to do anymore. I pray today for God to just take me home. I feel I live in the torment of my shame that can't be shared with anyone. I've never thought so much about suicide before. Where is God? Where are you, Lord? Why are you so absent when I need you most?

 

[Articles]

Lord, we thank you that you for the blessings that you have given us. Help us to honor you in every part of our lives. We place this request at your throne. Please hear and reply according to your perfect will and timing. Grant us the peace to know that you are in control. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

I have asked God in Jesus’ name to honor your prayer request that you have posted according to God’s perfect will. There are others praying over your request. Be encouraged. Remember to keep your focus on God. Trust Him. God is in control. He Loves You.

Prayer Focus: God I ask in Jesus’ name that my life will glorify You in all I say and do. Open the doors of spiritual growth, excellent health, wisdom, job opportunities, love, joy, peace, education, great favor, strength, prosperity, protection from all evil, and a long healthy life in Christ Jesus. Lord Jesus please closes the doors of disobedience and rebellion to Your Holy Word that may be open in my life. Close the doors of failure, despair, discouragement, fear, sickness, poverty, premature death, and every spirit that is not of You Lord Jesus that is or will try to operate in my life. Close every door in my life that You don’t want open. God all that I have asked of You in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of this prayer, and especially for all those I love, and care about. Amen, so be it, and it is so in Jesus’ name.



PS:Let’s Pray For This Prayer Site: In the name of JESUS, God cover Your children on this site including me in the blood of Christ Jesus. WE ask for Your warrior angels to protect us and this prayer site. God keep us and this site safe from all prayers of witchcraft, sorcery, mind control, prayer chains, chanting, and everything else that is not of You God being displayed on this prayer site that is not Christian. God protect us all, especially the immature and baby Christians in JESUS' Name. Amen, so be it, and it is so!

 

[jesus7777777]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Isabelle11]

Praying for your request

 

[NotWorthy]

Thank you all for the prayers. Nights are especially hard and I had posted that early this morning. Re-reading what I had typed makes me so sad. Lord, please grant me strength and faith. I am weak.

 

[Rick1]

The Lord Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged (Deuteronomy 31:8)

When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles (Psalms 34:17).

Put you trust in the Lord. He is Faithful to His Word, I am praying for you.

 

[Jayoung]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.