Sister listen to me you do not want to open the gates of hell. You do not want to go there. I rebuke satan in the name of Jesus God is better God is so much better. Let go of the temptation. How do you walk with God?
You position yourself under the waterfall of grace, you wait and you walk in obedience, You take one step at a time delighting in the father, you ask him to restore the joy of your salvation, you ask him to break your heart everyday, you ask God to make him your treasure. Be honest with yourself, you fell short and maybe you doubted but God forgives, where sin abounds grace abounds. Put your hope in God not what you believe in your heart. The heart can be deceitful, I pray that God will give you a strong hope and a faith in him. I pray that he will help you see and grow in him. The last thing you need is a physic for God said that is of the devil. You may have problems but you will get through it. Those who wait will renew their strength. God loves you and it's not too late. He will give you the desires of your heart. And we are always here praying. God is enough. Whom have I on earth in heaven but you? And besides you I desire nothing on earth. Though through the deepest most possible pain, God is enough and he will take care of you, he will satisfy you, he will get you through this. Though your heart and your flesh may fail he will be your strength of your heart. Even if you go to a fortune teller they won't get your future right dear. Wait on the Lord and he will give you a good husband. But you must be ready to be ready for your husband. In Jesus name. God be with you dear.