mew415
Servant of All
God, I give up. I officially give up. Why would you tell me to hold on and have faith and not let go of ### just so you can torture me and torment me and tell me to keep praying for the things I most desire?! My heart breaks more and more every single day without him. I've lost 15+ pounds, I've lost hours of sleep, I've gained nothing. I don't feel your love, I don't feel your blessings, I don't feel better about myself.... Why are you doing this to me? What am I supposed to be learning? I've been studying your word, I've been learning how to pray, I've been consulting with a priest at my church, but he hasn't even responded to me! Why are you ignoring me? Why are you abandoning me?! I am angry! I am hurt! I am not the same person as you intended me to be without ###. A BIG part of me is missing without ###. I am not who I am supposed to be without him. I give up, Lord. I give up on you answering my prayers and giving ### back to me. Forgive me for this. I am just SO hurt. SO HURT.
