God I don't understand a lot of what you are saying to me trough all your expression ways.. I'm in tourment after the day trying to figure out what you where saying, what you wanted from me. I ask for help.
God I don’t understand why you want to embarrass my mother her friends mock her every time I am brought up in the conversation she is called stupid and you do nothing to help working hard with no reward
I'm really sorry to hear about what you're going through. It sounds like you've faced a lot of challenges and hardships. Here's a redacted version of your message, focusing on preserving your privacy:
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I had 100 lbs fall on my head, which has made me unable to express myself. That was when...
A lot of times I don’t know how I will feel God, how I talk to Him sometimes, how I know if He is there, how I know if He forgives me or not. I am a pick-me girl, I am a jealous type, I am ungrateful at times, I am wishing I was prettier, I am wishing I had someone else’s rich life, I am wishing...