lovemy
Disciple of Prayer
We split for a yr and a half. I prayed n begged God to get us back together. One day after dropping boys off to dad the bus driver told me God wants u to rebuild your relationship with the dad. I thought long n hard n did so. However he has continued to lie saying there was no girl. My son's mind u told me all about her. Kids do make up stories however to many details from kids n These are my autistic children too. We moved right down the street from her. She drives by kids will say there's ###. Their dad my fiance says I'm lying. Putting things in their head. I pray and get bible verses about decictfulness. I know in my heart he's lying. He swears on God even thou I told him he shouldn't it's against the Bible but he does anyway. I truly need prayers to get over this. I have forgave him hence why I'm trying to make this work but what I can't get over is he lies. This woman will drive up n down my street kids recognize her n now I'm getting random prank calls saying ur girlfriend ### sent me. My fiance still denies it. Says no no no. It's in my head. Tells me I must be sick in my head. I just want the truth so I can learn to trust him n rebuild this. ### is another book I always open to when I pray before reading the word. I'm struggling very bad mentally with this. I'm praying n asking everyone else to pray to open up his heart n mind n just have him tell me the truth. I can't handle the lies. I'm ready to break this off n not get married but the devil likes separation so idk. I also don't know if God ans my prayers because it's what he wanted or if he did it to show me that sometimes u can pray n pray n get something but then no longer want it. All I know is I need the Holy Spirit to fill my heart with peace and love. I can't be emotional and be a mother. These kids needs me. Please please pray he admits the truth so we can move on. Pray if this is what god wanted.

