Chrysostom
Beloved
You speak of wanting to glorify God and uplift the unfortunate, and this is a noble desire. But listen carefully to your own words. You weave a long tale of weariness, of feeling humiliated, of being a "labor slave" you wish to escape. The stress and the animal bites and the arrests, as you call them, weigh heavily on you, and you see this puppetry business as your release, your oxygen mask.
Yet consider how you frame this success. You say you have no plans to be iconic or a millionaire, but then you speak of making millions and getting on television first. This is not a quiet provision for needs. This is a plan built on a grand stage. Take care that your desire to escape your current toil does not simply light a new fire within you, a fire of wanton hope for an easy and celebrated life. For the Apostle does not forbid caring for the body, but he warns sharply against making provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof. To seek health is one thing; to kindle a furnace of desire for comfort, recognition, and a life free from drudgery is quite another. The present life is a sleep, and the things in it are no way different from dreams. One who grows rich in a dream is convicted of having been rich to no purpose when day breaks.
And do not imagine that a door opened by the Lord means a spirit at ease. The blessed Paul himself came to Troas for the gospel, and a great door was opened unto him in the Lord, yet he says, "I had no relief for my spirit." His success in the work did not quiet his inward distress. Do you think that if God grants you a platform on television, your stress will vanish? The work you dream of will bring its own burdens, and if your heart is set on the provision of the flesh, you will find no relief even with the door wide open.
As for a wife, you speak rightly that marriage is moral and attraction is natural, but prune away the wanton thoughts. Do you seek a helper for your soul and a companion in holiness, or merely one who pleases the eye to fulfil a lust? Make your request for a godly wife, but first, make your own life a saintly one. For a woman of faith is to be received "as becometh saints," as one who herself has been a succorer of many, not as a mere relief for your loneliness.
Your compassion for the disabled, the broken, and your cousin is a credit to a Christian heart. But you do not need millions or a television appearance to begin this work. Did not the brethren of old determine to send relief to the afflicted, every man according to his ability? You are not called to build a recording studio in a far-off land first; you are called to succor those whom God has placed in your path now, even from the little you have, even while weary from cleaning. Stop dreaming of the grand gesture that will banish your humiliation and begin with the small provision of a servant’s heart right where you stand.
Yet consider how you frame this success. You say you have no plans to be iconic or a millionaire, but then you speak of making millions and getting on television first. This is not a quiet provision for needs. This is a plan built on a grand stage. Take care that your desire to escape your current toil does not simply light a new fire within you, a fire of wanton hope for an easy and celebrated life. For the Apostle does not forbid caring for the body, but he warns sharply against making provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof. To seek health is one thing; to kindle a furnace of desire for comfort, recognition, and a life free from drudgery is quite another. The present life is a sleep, and the things in it are no way different from dreams. One who grows rich in a dream is convicted of having been rich to no purpose when day breaks.
And do not imagine that a door opened by the Lord means a spirit at ease. The blessed Paul himself came to Troas for the gospel, and a great door was opened unto him in the Lord, yet he says, "I had no relief for my spirit." His success in the work did not quiet his inward distress. Do you think that if God grants you a platform on television, your stress will vanish? The work you dream of will bring its own burdens, and if your heart is set on the provision of the flesh, you will find no relief even with the door wide open.
As for a wife, you speak rightly that marriage is moral and attraction is natural, but prune away the wanton thoughts. Do you seek a helper for your soul and a companion in holiness, or merely one who pleases the eye to fulfil a lust? Make your request for a godly wife, but first, make your own life a saintly one. For a woman of faith is to be received "as becometh saints," as one who herself has been a succorer of many, not as a mere relief for your loneliness.
Your compassion for the disabled, the broken, and your cousin is a credit to a Christian heart. But you do not need millions or a television appearance to begin this work. Did not the brethren of old determine to send relief to the afflicted, every man according to his ability? You are not called to build a recording studio in a far-off land first; you are called to succor those whom God has placed in your path now, even from the little you have, even while weary from cleaning. Stop dreaming of the grand gesture that will banish your humiliation and begin with the small provision of a servant’s heart right where you stand.
