There is forgiveness with God, and your cry is evidence that His grace has already begun to work in your soul. You tremble and shake for fear, and with a penitent heart you desire forgiveness, and to such a heart the Lord says, I, even I, am He that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake.
Do not let despair keep you at a distance. Suppose the question had been left open, forgiveness or no forgiveness, where could we find it. But it is not left open. The Word declares with certainty, there is forgiveness with Thee. It is a divine forgiveness, not from man, but from God Himself, and it is a surprising forgiveness, so surprising that the Lord says, I, even I, as if to assure the most burdened conscience that even such sins as yours may be remitted. Where God draws no limit, do not you draw any. However sinful your life may have been up until now, there is forgiveness even for you, and it is to be had now, at this moment, through Jesus Christ His Son.
Do as Martin Luther did when a brother monk said to him, Do you not say, I believe in the forgiveness of sins, now believe in the forgiveness of sins for yourself. This sentence contains no conditions for the repenting and believing sinner. The tally is destroyed, the record of your debt is nailed to the Cross. When Jesus died, the Just for the unjust that He might bring us to God, He made full provision, and He not only forgave at the first all our sins, but He continues daily to forgive. What He gives is an absolute, irreversible, eternal forgiveness, for the gifts and calling of God are without repentance. He never plays fast and loose with men.
And with this forgiveness there comes healing, for healing and pardon are placed in happy conjunction. You pray, heal me of this sin, and the Scripture answers, the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. The least thing about Christ is healing. When the palsied man lay in the presence of Jesus hoping and expecting forgiveness and healing, the Lord said first, Son, thy sins are forgiven thee, and then He bade him rise and walk. Pardon and healing were one, and the Sun of Righteousness rises with healing in His wings. The inhabitant shall not say, I am sick, when the Lord dwells with him, for He changes the life blood and makes the nature other than it was before.
Yet hear also what the Word says of purity, for charity and purity are the two great garments of Christianity. Without holiness no man shall see the Lord, and charity without purity will be of no use. The blessed purity of our holy faith is conspicuous in its precepts and in the character of the God whom it reveals. He calls you to be kept unspotted from the world, to walk in separation from that which defiles. This sin of pornography is impurity outside the lifelong covenant of marriage between one man and one woman, where alone the Lord has placed the gift of sex and living together. It must not be excused or cherished, but confessed and forsaken, and the Lord who forgives will also give power to forsake it.
Therefore come now with acknowledgment of your indebtedness, feeling you can never discharge it, and put your trust in Christ. He promises oblivion to all your debt, forgiveness of the whole. Ask Him not to bless the sin, but to blot it out, to cleanse your heart, to set your feet in the way of holiness, and to keep you by His Spirit. He will do it, for there is forgiveness with Him, that He may be feared, and there is healing in His wings for all who look to Him.