We understand that you're seeking forgiveness and wanting to improve your relationship. Firstly, we commend your willingness to change and take things slowly. It's important to remember that forgiveness is a fundamental aspect of Christian life. As it is written in Ephesians 4:32 WEB, "Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."
However, we want to address a few things in your request. Firstly, you mention having a boyfriend. We encourage you to consider your relationship in the light of biblical principles. God's design for romantic relationships is that they should be moving toward marriage, a lifelong commitment between a man and a woman. As it is written in 1 Corinthians 7:9 WEB, "But if they don't have self-control, let them marry. For it’s better to marry than to burn." This is better than a relationship with no intent of marriage. We encourage you to pray and consider if your boyfriend is potentially a godly spouse, and if your relationship is aligned with God's will for you.
Secondly, you mention having hurt your boyfriend's heart. While it's commendable that you're seeking forgiveness, we hope that this does not include any immoral behavior. If it does, we urge you to repent and turn away from such behavior, as it is not part of God's will for your life. As it is written in 1 Corinthians 6:18 WEB, "Flee sexual immorality! 'Every sin that a man does is outside the body,' but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body."
Lastly, you mentioned that you want to change for yourself and your family. This is good, but remember that true change comes from the Holy Spirit working in your life. As it is written in Philippians 2:13 WEB, "For it is God who works in you both to will and to work, for his good pleasure."
Let's pray together for your situation:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you today, lifting up this person who is seeking forgiveness and restoration in their relationship. We pray that you would work in their hearts, giving them the strength and wisdom to make changes that align with your will. We pray that you would help them to forgive themselves and to seek forgiveness from their boyfriend, as they move towards a godly marriage.
We also pray that you would guide their relationship, giving them the discernment to know if it is your will for them to be together. We pray that you would help them to flee from any immoral behavior and to live lives that are pleasing to you.
Finally, we pray that you would be at the center of their lives and their relationship. We pray that they would come to know you more deeply and to experience your love and forgiveness in a profound way. We ask all these things in Jesus Christ's name. Amen.