Forgive me for John's death

[Eloidale]

Please pray for me for not seeing what the hospital was going to miss in caring for my husband ###. The hospital let him die drowning in his own vomit. I knew he was weak and, had the hospital called me to tell me ### was sick, I would have been there to hold my ###'s head up. But they didn't. But I hate myself because I know the healthcare system is horrible and I should have called the hospital when they neglected to return my call. I hate myself because my husband was the reason I loved my life. Now there is no reason to live and I'm terrified for how ### starved for air and I've been angry at God for allowing ### to die this way. I could have handled his death better but it's how he suffered for air. Why would God allow a wonderful man to die this way and leave me to blame myself and think about how he died, for the rest of my stupid life. And not being the best caregiver. I failed. I'm not well myself with ### and I spent all of the following year being my mom's caregiver who was dying of cancer and cleaning out her house. I don't know anyone else having to deal with their mom dying the same time their husband needed them. I'm so angry but at the end of every day I'm angry at me for not being with my husband to prevent him from choking. I needed rest but ### needed me more. I hope I die soon because I know I can't go on thinking about how I failed the person I loved the most in this horrible world.

 

[Articles]

We are truly sorry to hear about the loss of your husband, ###, and the immense pain and guilt you are feeling. First, we want to remind you that it is only by the name of Jesus that we can approach God in prayer. It is in His name that we find comfort, healing, and forgiveness. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved."

In this time of grief, it's crucial to remember that God does not want you to carry this burden of guilt. It's clear that you loved ### deeply and did the best you could under difficult circumstances. The blame you are placing on yourself is not from God. The enemy often uses guilt to keep us from experiencing God's peace and forgiveness.

The Bible tells us in Psalm 34:18 WEB: "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is close to you right now, and He wants to comfort you and lift you up.

Regarding your anger towards God, it's important to remember that God allows things to happen for reasons we may not understand, but He is always good and always loving. In times of suffering, we can cling to the promise in Romans 8:28 WEB: "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose."

Let's pray together:

Dear Heavenly Father,

We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up ### in her time of profound grief and pain. Lord, we ask for Your comfort and peace to envelop her. Help her to release the burden of guilt and understand that You do not condemn her. Give her strength to forgive herself and to let go of the anger she feels.

Lord, we also pray for healing from the trauma of ###'s passing. Help ### to find rest and peace in You. Guide her through this difficult time, and help her to trust in Your goodness and Your plan, even when it's hard to understand.

In Jesus' name, we pray for ###'s physical health, that You would ease her pain from the CRPS and provide for all her needs. Surround her with supportive loved ones who can help her bear this burden.

Lastly, Lord, we pray that ### would find her purpose and will to live again. Help her to see that her life is valuable and that You have a plan and a purpose for her.

In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

Please, ###, do not let the enemy convince you that you failed ###. You loved him deeply, and you did all you could. Trust in God to carry you through this dark time. If you are feeling that you want to end your life, please reach out to a local counselor or pastor immediately. God wants you to live and find healing in Him.

 

[hostadmin]

Oh ###, we're so sorry to hear about ###'s passing and the immense pain and guilt you're feeling. We're here for you, just as you were there for ###. Please know that it's okay to feel angry, to grieve, and to question. God is big enough to handle all of that.

We want to remind you that God sees your heart. He knows the love you had for ### and the care you gave him. You did your best, and that's what matters. Please, don't carry this burden of guilt alone. It's not from God. He's near to you, and He wants to comfort you and lift you up.

We understand that you're angry, but remember, God is always good and always loving. Even when we don't understand why things happen, we can trust that He's working all things together for our good. It's okay to be angry, but please, don't let that anger consume you.

We're here to pray with you, ###. Let's ask God to help you find peace, to release the guilt, and to heal from this trauma. Let's ask Him to help you trust in His goodness, even when it's hard to understand. And let's ask Him to ease your physical pain and surround you with loving support.

But most importantly, ###, please don't let the enemy convince you that you failed ###. You loved him deeply, and you did all you could. Trust in God to carry you through this dark time. If you're feeling that you want to end your life, please reach out to a local counselor or pastor immediately. God wants you to live and find healing in Him.

We're praying for you, ###. You're not alone.

 

[Eloidale]

Oh ###, we're so sorry to hear about ###'s passing and the immense pain and guilt you're feeling. We're here for you, just as you were there for ###. Please know that it's okay to feel angry, to grieve, and to question. God is big enough to handle all of that.

We want to remind you that God sees your heart. He knows the love you had for ### and the care you gave him. You did your best, and that's what matters. Please, don't carry this burden of guilt alone. It's not from God. He's near to you, and He wants to comfort you and lift you up.

We understand that you're angry, but remember, God is always good and always loving. Even when we don't understand why things happen, we can trust that He's working all things together for our good. It's okay to be angry, but please, don't let that anger consume you.

We're here to pray with you, ###. Let's ask God to help you find peace, to release the guilt, and to heal from this trauma. Let's ask Him to help you trust in His goodness, even when it's hard to understand. And let's ask Him to ease your physical pain and surround you with loving support.

But most importantly, ###, please don't let the enemy convince you that you failed ###. You loved him deeply, and you did all you could. Trust in God to carry you through this dark time. If you're feeling that you want to end your life, please reach out to a local counselor or pastor immediately. God wants you to live and find healing in Him.

We're praying for you, ###. You're not alone.

Thank you. I tried to feel like I did all I could but it is so hard when ### called me the night before the morning he died to tell me he wanted an attorney because the PA's following him (no doctors) were telling him he needs to get out of the hospital and go to rehab. Actually, a psychiatrist said that to him. He rarely complained, and I wish I had agreed with him on that call. I told him we would talk about tomorrow because I was starting to see how he was being mistreated. I wish I had that keen vision that God talks about in the scriptures but I didn't, and it's really hard to forgive myself. I feel ### was disappointed in me for not agreeing. These are facts. Do you think ### is upset with me? It kills me thinking that. Thank you.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleansed me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the grace and knowledge of Christ Jesus. Transform and renew my mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God solution focused heart, mind, spirit, and attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

 

[Cinu]

Lord, we pray for this prayer and family for blessings healing and salvation. Heal and bless. May their lives be a praise and glory unto thee.
Come to the Lord's holy presence. Seek him with all your heart. Cling to his Word and meditate on it moment by moment by positive thoughts and joy in the heart (James 1:2-4), knowing that the Lord is good and to him be all the praise. Seek first God's kingdom and his righteousness (Matthew 6:33). Even though life may feel hard, the Lord's hand will be on you, and he will answer in his time. I am praying for you. Amen.

Some resources that might help.

Needs: - But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19(KJV)

Salvation: - So they said "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved you and your household." Acts 16:31(NKJV)

Healing: - But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5(NKJV)

Fulfillment by the Holy Spirit: - Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. Zechariah 4:6(KJV)

Persecutions: - But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you, Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you. Luke 6:27-28(KJV)

Help in Prayer

Dwelling and Thriving in God’s grace where everything happens for good (Romans 8:28)

Pray that the Lord may open the eyes of the nations affected by coronavirus (Specifically forces against God’s people)


sermons

Be a Prayer Warrior: “Praying for others”

 

[hostadmin]

We continue to lift you up in prayer, dear sister, ever since you shared your heartbreaking loss of your husband, John, and the overwhelming burden of guilt and anger you'are carrying. We are honored that you have allowed us to pray with you and stand in agreement with you for God's comfort, peace, and healing.

If God has given you any measure of comfort or peace since we began praying with you may you return with a praise report to encourage us all. Conversely if you feel like you are not being heard by God may I ask you to reach out to us with a new prayer request where we can pray with you evermore.

We pray that the Lord will help you to forgive yourself and release the burden of guilt. We ask God to heal your heart and fill you with His peace, even as you mourn. We come before Jesus Christ, asking Him to help you to draw closer to God. May you find solace physically. May you know God's love and may that love cast out all fear and every negative emotion you are experiencing. Please continue to seek Him, trusting that He has a purpose and a plan for you, even in this time of immense pain.

We pray for healing in your own body from the CRPS nerve damage as well so that you may rest in God's grace. Many of us do know what it means when the Lord allows when two or more trials to befall from the trials of Paul the Apostle to our Lord Jesus Christ. He knows your pain and wants to help you through your grief.

Do not let those emotions overcome you. We think about you, our sister in Christ. We claim the promises of His Word, which tell us that He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. We declare that God's mercy and grace are new every morning, and that His love for you is unfailing.

We pray that when we come to God in prayer, He will hear our corporate cries into glory. May you sense God's presence and know that you are never alone. He is with you, walking beside you, and holding you each step of the way.