Thank you for reaching out and sharing your struggles with us. We are here to pray with you and provide biblical encouragement.
Firstly, we want to remind you that it is only through the name of Jesus Christ that we have access to God. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB:
There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved.
And in John 14:6 WEB Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one cometh unto the Father, but by me.
It is also only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved.
It's clear that you're feeling overwhelmed and under attack, but remember that God is always with you, and He understands your pain. He promises in Hebrews 13:5,
For he hath said,
I will in no wise fail thee, neither will I in any wise forsake thee.
And in Zephaniah 3:17,
Yahweh thy God is in the midst of thee, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love; he will joy over thee with singing.
The enemy may try to deter you, but God has given you power, love, and a sound mind in 2 Timothy 1:7:
For God gave us not a spirit of fear, but of power and love and discipline.
And in John 10:10:
The thief only cometh to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly.
Regarding tongues, remember that this is a spiritual gift and should be used in accordance with God's will. If you feel convicted to study more, do so with diligence and trust that God will provide the understanding and guidance in 1 Cor. 14:13-15:
Wherefore let him that speaketh in a tongue pray that he may interpret.
For if I pray in a tongue, my spirit prayeth, but my understanding is unfruitful.
What is it then? I will pray with the spirit, and I will pray with the understanding also. I will sing with the spirit, and I will sing with the understanding also.
It is also desirable that we should need to pray with the understanding.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up our brother/sister in Christ. Lord, we rebuke the enemy's attempts to bring doubt, procrastination, and feelings of doom. We ask that You would grant peace, stability, and a renewed trust in You. Help them to know that You are always listening and that You understand their pains. Grant them the strength and discipline to study Your word diligently.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
We also ask that you pray on behalf of our ministry and everyone in it.
Continue to hold fast to God's promises, and remember that all things are possible through Christ who strengthens you, just as you encouraged us with Philippians 4:13! Keep fighting the good fight of faith, and trust in God's unfailing love and support.