seanathon
Prayer Warrior
I have been trying to redeem myself in some prayer today for some of the things that went wrong. I would ask for forgiveness and grace in Jesus to help me be open again to the wonder and love and fellowship and respect and just genuine hope and search and openness for trust that I know I had at ### University when I was at college. It was there that I found ###, an amazing collegiate interchristian faith group that was a true place for friendship, and it was there that I felt God move on a more personal level than anything I felt in years. I was hoping that this prayer could be heard to completely restore my faith and trust in Jesus and that I would be able not only to be made whole but to wish true love and peace for all my friends at ### and ### and for peace and thanksgiving and goodwill between us to stay incredibly strong, stronger than anything that would try to break up our good will and friendship. I would ask for help praying this and being open to grace today, for a while I felt lost that I would not have the friendships I had at college. I would pray for ### and ### and ### and ### and ### and ### and I would pray for my house and all the relationships I have had and be able to bring the respect and good will and optimism of the human spirit to all the people and things that I would encounter today and from now on. I would ask for healing and restoration of trust because I admit that I was heavy through some tumultuous times, there were scary incidents, and I would ask that those scary incidents that caused doubt and confusion would not be remembered or have any influence any longer nor anything that came to prey on those times. I would ask for healing as I pray this prayer in Jesus' name, and I would ask for complete restoration of my faith, thanksgiving, and wholeness for all people today as they rejoice in love and understanding. I would ask for help to be humble and joyful like when I would sing at college learning opera, and now I prepare myself to say and ask the most important things of this prayer.
Jesus, I had been resentful; it was true, it wasn't even me, it was fear, it was me being a fool, but I know you do not see me as a fool. I was scared at ### Senior year, I didn't know, and I don't know why. I ask for forgiveness for not trusting, but even more, I ask that I forgive myself. I ask for humble trust that you will help me to love myself and all in my house again like brothers, father, and mothers. And again, I would ask for help like at '###' to be open and trusting in my search for before I came to ###, I was searching, I was searching for help. I knew you had brought me to ### and you were giving me a new chance to have a beautiful and loving life to heal the wounds of the past, and I would ask that the wounds of the past would heal completely for me to that any harassment and anything that would even try to bring up the wounds of the time near the end of high school would simply no longer have authority or even audience in any way, nor any pull. I would ask for clarity, clarity in thought and in prayer, and for distance and protection as I pray and that I would not give negativity any power that I would not dwell on negativity and that I would be open to calmness as I pray for some of the hardest things.
Jesus, I loved being at ### because I knew you were working there, and I admit that I had failed you and messed up myself when I thought you were not watching over my family. There were wounds here that I was terrified of, and I would ask for more healing than I could possibly hope for concerning the issues I have faced. You know I have gone astray in terms of delusional thoughts, and even in some cases, I have been scared and confused. Here I bring up my most pressing issues, the restoration of love, brotherly love for my sisters and brothers at ### and ###, and for healing and protection for all relationships in this house as well, for protection of all people in the ### and ### area and aforementioned areas. I would ask now that I bring up this part of the prayer that is most important to me and that I would feel a healing hope that would not die nor become perverse. I ask in Jesus Christ's name for healing regarding my relationship with ### ###. I would also ask that while I type this prayer, I would be protected and that loving light would lift go faster than any gravity and or negativity, and that even in my imagination, she would now by healing loving light be able to now be released away from whatever negativity I held against her. I don't really understand, but I would ask now in Jesus' name that loving light would release her away from whatever darkness was trying to oppress her. I ask for help in my imagination as well. There were terrible things that I told me I was not a brother to her, there were terrible things that were trying to tell me I was going to become a villain. I would ask for complete lifting away of those terrible thoughts. I would ask for help even as I pray right now because although I am feeling stronger as I type this, there are problems that are trying to keep me in a state of pain. I would ask, I would ask for help in this moment to be free and to be free, I need to be able to ask and allow Jesus to help me to not obsess about her or negative thoughts. I know you can help me, and I also need help with allowing loving light to enter into the depths of my imagination and to take ### away from my nightmares. I would ask for help as I go about the day to no longer have obsessive thoughts, and I would ask for help in my imagination to truly let ### have a happy life today in ###. It is strange and sad that this has happened that someone who I treasured as a sister I now have obsessive and negative thoughts about, especially when she did nothing wrong. I ask that I stop projecting my problems onto her that I let her escape away from my negative thoughts. This is a big issue for me not because she did anything wrong, or even that I have done much wrong in reality against her, but you know that I have trouble bringing this up because it was the fear that I would not be a good friend and that I had alterior motives that led me to this strange place, the fear that I would for some reason not be a real friend, etc. I would ask for help now if we could sit and chat, I would ask for a healing and sanctified mental state today that would let me talk to you like a big brother, a big brother who understands all the things I have gone through and who can offer consolation, advice, and healing concerning this situation. I would ask for a helmet now in my mind to remain stable and strong to guard my thoughts against negativity. I would ask for help concerning this prayer and that it would work like grace and medicine to cleanse me of my problems and afflictions. I would ask for help in areas of my life that I may not even know I may need help in, but lastly, I would pray for this prayer of protection and healing. Jesus, I would pray that ### and all the other people at ### and all my friends and family not only would be protected but I would ask that any spiritual warfare that is or has happened to any of them would simply not have any authority or power in their lives. Nay more, I would ask that I would also be guarded separately as I try to even deal with this concept. For a long time, I did not even think that spiritual warfare existed; I just thought that you would try to be a good person and do good in the world, and Jesus would allow grace and love to help you in that process. Honestly, I have been terrified by the idea of spiritual warfare. I am scared but I would ask for help and a helmet of invincible reassurance that you are not only watching over me but guiding me and protecting my thoughts and helping me to cause no harm. Lastly, I would ask that ### would be protected in both mind, body, and spirit, and you and soul, and that you would help me to repent of all the trespasses I have made against her, because although she considers me a good friend and although I consider her one of the most loving and truly Christian and amazing people I know, I would just ask that whatever I held against her would simply fall off without power like a water droplet. I admit that I took my loneliness when I was scared of so many things at the end of ### to start toying with my thoughts, and I admit that it did not help the friendship. I would ask for healing in full concerning this. I would ask for help being a friend like I was at ### sophomore year when I respected her as a mentor and sister, and I would ask for help in this moment to truly no longer have any lustful thoughts or covetous about her, because although I did not let such thoughts enter our relationship too much, I admit that I had had them, and for so long, those thoughts were kept at bay, and I saw clearly for the first time in a long time the wonder of being a brother and friend in Christian fellowship, and it was a joy to meet someone like her so I am asking for help like rain to simply help me in this time of need to give up whatever anger or projection I held, and that ### be freed away from any of anger, jealousy, or lust in my mind and in reality if there is even a trace of it there. I would ask for healing concerning my heart; it got confused because I hadn't loved someone as much as I could sense I felt in ### in a very long time. She made everything about the day clearer and bright, and I am asking for help to keep the friendship and the clarity and goodness and love in my heart and that I would be like a beacon of light to all those in the day. Quite honestly, she is a true help to all she meets, and Jesus, you have used her amazingly. I would ask that I would not be jealous of her enthusiasm but I would ask that I could let my own light shine as honorably as she has. I would ask for help being a good brother. Lastly, I would ask for help and protection for ###, and I would ask that I give up whatever negativity I held against her. You know that I tried my hardest to respect her relationship with ### and not only did I ask for help respecting it but you let me sing songs of thanksgiving and praise that she had found someone she loved and who loved her. At that time, they seemed like a joyous light together, and I sang for them and their happiness, and it was a truly good time, and I was glad to sing as I did, and I would ask that I could sing I did that day in friendship again. I also know that I need help dealing with the emotions that I went through after I found that they had broken up. I was hoping to move on as a after I sang that song, and for a while, I had, and I had enjoyed my life, but I am asking for healing and forgiveness today considering my situation. I am asking for help and respect for those I meet today that I would be open with joy and enthusiasm like my best moments at ### University, and I would ask for help respecting those I meet with joy that would only allow my joy to harmonize and grow as I interact and try to make new friends and hang on to old ones. Jesus, this is a big prayer, and I know you hear every word like a brother. I know that you love me and that you love ### with all your heart more than I could possibly imagine. I would ask that I stop holding any negativity or obsessive thoughts about her that I realize she is her own person, and I would ask for a head of protection around all the people of ### and ###, and I would ask for help stilling my mind because it is still in some kind of turmoil, but I would ask that I could simply wish ### well as I move on throughout my day, and if you could help me to get back to that joyous state of wanting to have cooking parties with her as a friend and brother like when I was a kid, that would be great, truly. I was overjoyed to hear that she may want to have a cooking party, but I let myself get burdened by guilt, and I am sorry that I had. I ask for forgiveness and healing, and I would ask for protection for ###. I have a confession to make, and it has been haunting me for a while, and it is that I had been stuck in some kind of hostility at a point in my time when I should have prayed for her. I would ask that any bad thing that is trying to thwart her would be pushed aside and pushed at bay. This situation was this: ### had gone to church and was at a safe location when all of a sudden, the girl next to her began to attack her. She was alright, and I would just ask that I would now pray that ### would be protected against any of also like the Jerusalem had its soldiers wear next to her jumped up and began to attack her. I don't know what this was, and I would ask that I would pray against whatever made I would ask for help for myself, asking for forgiveness. I could feel some kind of rudeness and jealousy and anger, and it scared me. I don't know where I came from. I would ask for help keeping in calm reality, and that any of the evil that would try to attack wouldn't even be able to that it would simply lose any of its might and it would evaporate without residuals. Also, I would ask for help now repenting because this was the scariest moment for me. I would ask that I would now pray that I would never entertain ideas that I wished this upon her because I do not, and I would ask for help. There was some kind of doubt and confusion complex that was trying to confuse me, and I wish that I had prayed for her that night when my friend ### told me what had happened. I would ask that I would pray like ### told me to pray now in Jesus Christ's name. I pray that ### or anyone would have a safe and loving and blessed and guarded day. And in all honesty, I would ask now and ask now that I would be healed of whatever negativity had blocked me that night and that I would be able to completely see people as friends and sister and brothers, and I would ask for help, and I would ask for a helmet, and I would ask that I feel the love return to my heart stronger as if the previous two years of hardship simply didn't happen. I would ask for help now to calm down and stay calm and to be a good brother here now in ### to all meet and to be a good student and son to ### as I take piano, and I would ask for help now because still I have delusions, although I know that you hear me. I would ask for help, and I would ask for the calmness of trust that you hear me like a big brother and the trust to believe that I am getting better that I would ask to get better to not only resound but to come true more beautiful and more strong and healing than I could possibly imagine. And Jesus, I would ask, and I give thanks today, and it is a very beautiful day. Amen, and for help being a brother without judgment. I know you hear this prayer not only on this website but you hear it as if I spoke and talked with you on a bench as a brother who needed some help from his big brother, and I would ask for forgiveness and help this day and to help and respect all those I meet today and to be able to humbly accept any of the any of their help today. Amen.
That's my last prayer for today. Have a good day!
Jesus, I had been resentful; it was true, it wasn't even me, it was fear, it was me being a fool, but I know you do not see me as a fool. I was scared at ### Senior year, I didn't know, and I don't know why. I ask for forgiveness for not trusting, but even more, I ask that I forgive myself. I ask for humble trust that you will help me to love myself and all in my house again like brothers, father, and mothers. And again, I would ask for help like at '###' to be open and trusting in my search for before I came to ###, I was searching, I was searching for help. I knew you had brought me to ### and you were giving me a new chance to have a beautiful and loving life to heal the wounds of the past, and I would ask that the wounds of the past would heal completely for me to that any harassment and anything that would even try to bring up the wounds of the time near the end of high school would simply no longer have authority or even audience in any way, nor any pull. I would ask for clarity, clarity in thought and in prayer, and for distance and protection as I pray and that I would not give negativity any power that I would not dwell on negativity and that I would be open to calmness as I pray for some of the hardest things.
Jesus, I loved being at ### because I knew you were working there, and I admit that I had failed you and messed up myself when I thought you were not watching over my family. There were wounds here that I was terrified of, and I would ask for more healing than I could possibly hope for concerning the issues I have faced. You know I have gone astray in terms of delusional thoughts, and even in some cases, I have been scared and confused. Here I bring up my most pressing issues, the restoration of love, brotherly love for my sisters and brothers at ### and ###, and for healing and protection for all relationships in this house as well, for protection of all people in the ### and ### area and aforementioned areas. I would ask now that I bring up this part of the prayer that is most important to me and that I would feel a healing hope that would not die nor become perverse. I ask in Jesus Christ's name for healing regarding my relationship with ### ###. I would also ask that while I type this prayer, I would be protected and that loving light would lift go faster than any gravity and or negativity, and that even in my imagination, she would now by healing loving light be able to now be released away from whatever negativity I held against her. I don't really understand, but I would ask now in Jesus' name that loving light would release her away from whatever darkness was trying to oppress her. I ask for help in my imagination as well. There were terrible things that I told me I was not a brother to her, there were terrible things that were trying to tell me I was going to become a villain. I would ask for complete lifting away of those terrible thoughts. I would ask for help even as I pray right now because although I am feeling stronger as I type this, there are problems that are trying to keep me in a state of pain. I would ask, I would ask for help in this moment to be free and to be free, I need to be able to ask and allow Jesus to help me to not obsess about her or negative thoughts. I know you can help me, and I also need help with allowing loving light to enter into the depths of my imagination and to take ### away from my nightmares. I would ask for help as I go about the day to no longer have obsessive thoughts, and I would ask for help in my imagination to truly let ### have a happy life today in ###. It is strange and sad that this has happened that someone who I treasured as a sister I now have obsessive and negative thoughts about, especially when she did nothing wrong. I ask that I stop projecting my problems onto her that I let her escape away from my negative thoughts. This is a big issue for me not because she did anything wrong, or even that I have done much wrong in reality against her, but you know that I have trouble bringing this up because it was the fear that I would not be a good friend and that I had alterior motives that led me to this strange place, the fear that I would for some reason not be a real friend, etc. I would ask for help now if we could sit and chat, I would ask for a healing and sanctified mental state today that would let me talk to you like a big brother, a big brother who understands all the things I have gone through and who can offer consolation, advice, and healing concerning this situation. I would ask for a helmet now in my mind to remain stable and strong to guard my thoughts against negativity. I would ask for help concerning this prayer and that it would work like grace and medicine to cleanse me of my problems and afflictions. I would ask for help in areas of my life that I may not even know I may need help in, but lastly, I would pray for this prayer of protection and healing. Jesus, I would pray that ### and all the other people at ### and all my friends and family not only would be protected but I would ask that any spiritual warfare that is or has happened to any of them would simply not have any authority or power in their lives. Nay more, I would ask that I would also be guarded separately as I try to even deal with this concept. For a long time, I did not even think that spiritual warfare existed; I just thought that you would try to be a good person and do good in the world, and Jesus would allow grace and love to help you in that process. Honestly, I have been terrified by the idea of spiritual warfare. I am scared but I would ask for help and a helmet of invincible reassurance that you are not only watching over me but guiding me and protecting my thoughts and helping me to cause no harm. Lastly, I would ask that ### would be protected in both mind, body, and spirit, and you and soul, and that you would help me to repent of all the trespasses I have made against her, because although she considers me a good friend and although I consider her one of the most loving and truly Christian and amazing people I know, I would just ask that whatever I held against her would simply fall off without power like a water droplet. I admit that I took my loneliness when I was scared of so many things at the end of ### to start toying with my thoughts, and I admit that it did not help the friendship. I would ask for healing in full concerning this. I would ask for help being a friend like I was at ### sophomore year when I respected her as a mentor and sister, and I would ask for help in this moment to truly no longer have any lustful thoughts or covetous about her, because although I did not let such thoughts enter our relationship too much, I admit that I had had them, and for so long, those thoughts were kept at bay, and I saw clearly for the first time in a long time the wonder of being a brother and friend in Christian fellowship, and it was a joy to meet someone like her so I am asking for help like rain to simply help me in this time of need to give up whatever anger or projection I held, and that ### be freed away from any of anger, jealousy, or lust in my mind and in reality if there is even a trace of it there. I would ask for healing concerning my heart; it got confused because I hadn't loved someone as much as I could sense I felt in ### in a very long time. She made everything about the day clearer and bright, and I am asking for help to keep the friendship and the clarity and goodness and love in my heart and that I would be like a beacon of light to all those in the day. Quite honestly, she is a true help to all she meets, and Jesus, you have used her amazingly. I would ask that I would not be jealous of her enthusiasm but I would ask that I could let my own light shine as honorably as she has. I would ask for help being a good brother. Lastly, I would ask for help and protection for ###, and I would ask that I give up whatever negativity I held against her. You know that I tried my hardest to respect her relationship with ### and not only did I ask for help respecting it but you let me sing songs of thanksgiving and praise that she had found someone she loved and who loved her. At that time, they seemed like a joyous light together, and I sang for them and their happiness, and it was a truly good time, and I was glad to sing as I did, and I would ask that I could sing I did that day in friendship again. I also know that I need help dealing with the emotions that I went through after I found that they had broken up. I was hoping to move on as a after I sang that song, and for a while, I had, and I had enjoyed my life, but I am asking for healing and forgiveness today considering my situation. I am asking for help and respect for those I meet today that I would be open with joy and enthusiasm like my best moments at ### University, and I would ask for help respecting those I meet with joy that would only allow my joy to harmonize and grow as I interact and try to make new friends and hang on to old ones. Jesus, this is a big prayer, and I know you hear every word like a brother. I know that you love me and that you love ### with all your heart more than I could possibly imagine. I would ask that I stop holding any negativity or obsessive thoughts about her that I realize she is her own person, and I would ask for a head of protection around all the people of ### and ###, and I would ask for help stilling my mind because it is still in some kind of turmoil, but I would ask that I could simply wish ### well as I move on throughout my day, and if you could help me to get back to that joyous state of wanting to have cooking parties with her as a friend and brother like when I was a kid, that would be great, truly. I was overjoyed to hear that she may want to have a cooking party, but I let myself get burdened by guilt, and I am sorry that I had. I ask for forgiveness and healing, and I would ask for protection for ###. I have a confession to make, and it has been haunting me for a while, and it is that I had been stuck in some kind of hostility at a point in my time when I should have prayed for her. I would ask that any bad thing that is trying to thwart her would be pushed aside and pushed at bay. This situation was this: ### had gone to church and was at a safe location when all of a sudden, the girl next to her began to attack her. She was alright, and I would just ask that I would now pray that ### would be protected against any of also like the Jerusalem had its soldiers wear next to her jumped up and began to attack her. I don't know what this was, and I would ask that I would pray against whatever made I would ask for help for myself, asking for forgiveness. I could feel some kind of rudeness and jealousy and anger, and it scared me. I don't know where I came from. I would ask for help keeping in calm reality, and that any of the evil that would try to attack wouldn't even be able to that it would simply lose any of its might and it would evaporate without residuals. Also, I would ask for help now repenting because this was the scariest moment for me. I would ask that I would now pray that I would never entertain ideas that I wished this upon her because I do not, and I would ask for help. There was some kind of doubt and confusion complex that was trying to confuse me, and I wish that I had prayed for her that night when my friend ### told me what had happened. I would ask that I would pray like ### told me to pray now in Jesus Christ's name. I pray that ### or anyone would have a safe and loving and blessed and guarded day. And in all honesty, I would ask now and ask now that I would be healed of whatever negativity had blocked me that night and that I would be able to completely see people as friends and sister and brothers, and I would ask for help, and I would ask for a helmet, and I would ask that I feel the love return to my heart stronger as if the previous two years of hardship simply didn't happen. I would ask for help now to calm down and stay calm and to be a good brother here now in ### to all meet and to be a good student and son to ### as I take piano, and I would ask for help now because still I have delusions, although I know that you hear me. I would ask for help, and I would ask for the calmness of trust that you hear me like a big brother and the trust to believe that I am getting better that I would ask to get better to not only resound but to come true more beautiful and more strong and healing than I could possibly imagine. And Jesus, I would ask, and I give thanks today, and it is a very beautiful day. Amen, and for help being a brother without judgment. I know you hear this prayer not only on this website but you hear it as if I spoke and talked with you on a bench as a brother who needed some help from his big brother, and I would ask for forgiveness and help this day and to help and respect all those I meet today and to be able to humbly accept any of the any of their help today. Amen.
That's my last prayer for today. Have a good day!
