seanathon
Prayer Warrior
Hey guys, I have been told by the site admin to continue praying so I will regarding this. I have been going through some anxiety and doubt, fear/depression, but I am getting over it. Last night a beautiful thing happened when my mom and I watched some awesome Christian blues music and I drew some Christmas-themed art. It was a really beautiful moment, and I really loved going to sleep that night for the first time in months. I also felt at peace for quite some time with the radio playing Christian music. It was a God moment. I woke up peaceful for the first time in a while. I ask that you guys continue to pray that I be free from anxiety and worry, that I can be a good brother to ###, and a good son to my mom and dad. Also, I ask that you pray for my director ###, that he finds God who I believe already works through him to a large degree though he does not know it completely. He proclaims himself an atheist but works at the Kolping House, an amazing community center in ### that has dedicated itself to helping the poor in that area and has had amazing results. He is a truly loving person, and I ask for the healing strength to help me to forgive him of any trespasses and ask for forgiveness for any trespasses I have had in the past with him or my family. I won't go into many details, but basically, the anxiety I face is one of fear. The typical routine of this dumb fear is that it says I'm not a true Christian. It tries to delude me into thinking that I am a hateful person, something that my family has assured me they do not see or believe, and many people love me. I thank God in Jesus Christ's name for those people who have loved me and even those who have not. I ask for healing for my family and our interpersonal relations. We do truly love each other, but the love we once used to express so freely now seems to come only at times of emotional need. It does not feel as flowing as it used to be, and I admit that for some reason, although this may not be completely true, I ask for help with this. That I have not been as open as I feel I was, and I ask for healing back to the times when I was a happy child who simply loved being with my family, my mom, dad, and brother ###. As a side note, I'd like to pray for ###. He is 90 years old and a Christian I believe. His wife was a Quaker, and he loves her dearly, but he is alone now. She passed away. He is a truly awesome man, and I pray that he can find a community that truly loves him and that the Christian love that is inside him and that has been shown to him through his wife may upwell in his heart and comfort him in Jesus Christ's name. I pray, amen.
