Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hi again, it’s been awhile since I wrote. That’s because I am not doing well keeping things together. I just cry and cry. We had the funeral for my brother-in-law and I cried to everyone I spoke to. My husband started a new job which keeps him away from the house from 7:30-5:30 every day. You may think it’s great to have found work but it’s half the pay. And he was never away from me all day in our business; he could drop up anytime, which he did several times a day. This is a great loss of him to my everyday life. He also has to be away a couple nights a month. My son has to find another job and my other son is scared of the changes of new ownership.
I have lost all joy as much as I ask the Lord to fill me up, I just fill up with sad emotions.
My relationship with my husband is not good; we are just arguing and disagreeing. He is not a compassionate person so tears make him angry.
I have no desire to make Christmas dinner nor the energy to do it.
We had six offers on the sale of our garage and they all fell through.
The people we borrowed $200,000 from are coming tomorrow evening to ask for it back but we don’t have it, due to the garage not selling and the high cost of lawyers' fees which they take first in a sale.
I am just asking for the blessing of getting through the Christmas season without crying all the time. And the strength to get by moment to moment. I am a broken vessel. I am asking for safe travel as my husband is driving home after his stay of two nights tomorrow and it’s a 2 1/2 hour drive. When he left we argued and so haven’t spoken during this time only to inform me the people are coming for their money. He also missed the grandchild’s Christmas concert, something he has never missed ever. It was very hard for me to be there without him.
Please pray for our family, me especially as I am taking things the hardest, as the most changes will happen to me. I don’t have the support from my family as they are angry because I am upset and not their normal mother. They think I should be just fine with everything. So they don’t talk about it and never once ask me how I am doing. I feel like they don’t care about me. But I know they are hurting for the dad and that they can’t be angry at him so it’s me they take it on.
I asked for a miracle but don’t see it coming. I asked you to pray for whatever the Lord places on your heart, in Jesus’s precious name, Amen.
I have lost all joy as much as I ask the Lord to fill me up, I just fill up with sad emotions.
My relationship with my husband is not good; we are just arguing and disagreeing. He is not a compassionate person so tears make him angry.
I have no desire to make Christmas dinner nor the energy to do it.
We had six offers on the sale of our garage and they all fell through.
The people we borrowed $200,000 from are coming tomorrow evening to ask for it back but we don’t have it, due to the garage not selling and the high cost of lawyers' fees which they take first in a sale.
I am just asking for the blessing of getting through the Christmas season without crying all the time. And the strength to get by moment to moment. I am a broken vessel. I am asking for safe travel as my husband is driving home after his stay of two nights tomorrow and it’s a 2 1/2 hour drive. When he left we argued and so haven’t spoken during this time only to inform me the people are coming for their money. He also missed the grandchild’s Christmas concert, something he has never missed ever. It was very hard for me to be there without him.
Please pray for our family, me especially as I am taking things the hardest, as the most changes will happen to me. I don’t have the support from my family as they are angry because I am upset and not their normal mother. They think I should be just fine with everything. So they don’t talk about it and never once ask me how I am doing. I feel like they don’t care about me. But I know they are hurting for the dad and that they can’t be angry at him so it’s me they take it on.
I asked for a miracle but don’t see it coming. I asked you to pray for whatever the Lord places on your heart, in Jesus’s precious name, Amen.
