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rjanes
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I am struggling with several things. Mostly with the financial income part. I have 2 jobs but it is not enough to spread around to pay all my bills. If I had an actual teaching position - then I would have MORE than enough. But I have not been able to secure a job. I come across great on paper. But then am finishing 2nd during the interviews. I would just love if ONE of the principals would take a chance on me and give me a contract to sign. I love subbing. But its just not covering the bills.
And then there is my husband. he is stressing me out about our bill situation and creating seperation amongst us. He has clearly created boundaries with his child and then my children. It is continuing to rip my heart in two. This has been an ongoing battle for many years. I keep wanting to leave but I can't commit to the seperation. He "says" he loves me. But his actions are not proving it. He whines, complains and bitches. ALL THE TIME. And I don't know how to help us past this - again. My life has been very cyclical for too many years now. And every time I steal my heart against him - he cries and promises to fix it. And I have given in again and again and again. But each time, it happens again. Our youngest - which is "ours" - is picking up on this and is trying/succeeding to play one against the other.
Please give me guidance Lord.
Amen
And then there is my husband. he is stressing me out about our bill situation and creating seperation amongst us. He has clearly created boundaries with his child and then my children. It is continuing to rip my heart in two. This has been an ongoing battle for many years. I keep wanting to leave but I can't commit to the seperation. He "says" he loves me. But his actions are not proving it. He whines, complains and bitches. ALL THE TIME. And I don't know how to help us past this - again. My life has been very cyclical for too many years now. And every time I steal my heart against him - he cries and promises to fix it. And I have given in again and again and again. But each time, it happens again. Our youngest - which is "ours" - is picking up on this and is trying/succeeding to play one against the other.
Please give me guidance Lord.
Amen
