cesar00
Banned
Dear Lord, today I have prayed for several people fighting the dark side. This is not normal Dear Jesus, usually we are praying for sickness or some other kind of help from your merciful hands. Today there is evil in the air and it is time to close ranks and look into our souls to make sure the weapons are ready and we are worthy of the fight to come. Dear Jesus I stand before you and confess that I am weak and that I am sometimes afraid of what may happen on the next moment. I am afraid of what tomorrow may bring and of what may happen to my family. Although every night I pray and thank you for your blessing and care for us i always hesitate and doubt, even for a fraction of a second before convincing myself that all is well. Am I doubting you my Lord ?? I certainly hope not because if I was then all the suffering and the pain my family has gone thorugh has been in vain. I could have been a drug lord, You know I tried it, I could have been many things and my family would have no financial problems, but somewhere down the line on the way to destruction You step forward and opened my eyes making me change and straighten my ways. Once and again I tried and tried to go the easy way, the fast way, tried to steal and tried to do crooked businesses, my goal was to have money to give everythig to my children and wife, You know well Dear Jesus that many of our so called friends folowed these easy roads and live happily. On the other hand, my kids are not able to finish college because I cant afford it and my eight year old will not be allowed in school on Wednesday beacsue I dont have the money to pay for her tuition. I have not paid electricity, water or telephone bills this month, they will soon be cut. My car is not running properly and I have tons of other debts that must be paid including doctor's bills and the like. I am a diabetic and I am taking only a third of my medication to make it last because I cant afford to buy them all. Yo9u know Dear Jesus what my situation is, I do not need to tell you where I stand today. Even with all these problems and situations which I do not know how they will end, because I have put them completely into your hands because I do not have a way to solve them, I stand strong Dear Lord behind you, for you and at your service My Dear Lord Jesus. Because even though I have chosen to be poor I am happy, we may have to eat less once in a while and juggle around the money to survive but I jknow in my heart Dear Lord that our day will come when there will be no worries. I am a sinner Dear Lord, I am nothing but a man with fears and doubts, if I did not have them I would be YOU, I am tempted almost every day Dear Jewsuys, you know it, I am tempted especially when I am in serious problems like now, there is always someone to call me and offer a job a deal that wuill probably solve alkl my problems in one shot. I have decided Dear Jesus to wait for your will, for your time, I stand strong my Lord waiting for you, helping in my small insignificant way in the enormousd fight we face against the forces of evil which try to choke us day in and day out. The devil knows that I can be tempted because I have fallen before and for these sins you have forgiven me and I have become strongter. Today I bare my soul to you again Dear Jesus begging you for peace, begging you for faith begging you for an oportunity to prove myself to you and to wait out the storm I am now fighting while you decide it is time to extend your merciful hands to me and bring me and my family into the light. Thank you Jesus in you we trust.