Anonymous
Beloved of All
Dear Father, I ask that you purge me of my lustful eyes, that you grant me some power over my carnal desires. For too long these lustful and evil desires of mine have burrowed deep within the confines of my being, and have made residence within me. Pornography, once a disgusting and wretched evil; now has unfortunately become my daily undertaking. In fighting this for many years, it is only now that I recognize it is something I cannot do alone.
Father, in fighting this alone I've sometimes been successful. However, when I am, I feel a great emptiness. A void. I feel like an empty vessel, awaiting to be loved. I get extremely depressed. Then, within me, spurs a desire even greater than lust, the need to be loved by another. However, that desire never comes to be fulfilled, and hence by habit, I return to sexual sin; to suppress that greater dreadful feeling of loneliness.
Today, I hope with my prayer that perhaps, if it be your will, that you may finally vanquish that dreadful loneliness along with that lust. Perhaps that you be that another, to fill me with love and to bring an end to my dread. That if willing, that I can finally be pure from sexual sin, and start looking at other beings as more than objects of pleasure. But instead, that I may look at them as wonderful creations made by your righteous hands.
Thank you Father, and thank you for sending your son to cover my wretched sins. I am not deserving of it, but by your grace, I have been saved. I thank you, and hope to one day return the act and glorify you in full through my actions; so that others may join in your cause, and have the truth revealed to them as it has been revealed to me.
Father, in fighting this alone I've sometimes been successful. However, when I am, I feel a great emptiness. A void. I feel like an empty vessel, awaiting to be loved. I get extremely depressed. Then, within me, spurs a desire even greater than lust, the need to be loved by another. However, that desire never comes to be fulfilled, and hence by habit, I return to sexual sin; to suppress that greater dreadful feeling of loneliness.
Today, I hope with my prayer that perhaps, if it be your will, that you may finally vanquish that dreadful loneliness along with that lust. Perhaps that you be that another, to fill me with love and to bring an end to my dread. That if willing, that I can finally be pure from sexual sin, and start looking at other beings as more than objects of pleasure. But instead, that I may look at them as wonderful creations made by your righteous hands.
Thank you Father, and thank you for sending your son to cover my wretched sins. I am not deserving of it, but by your grace, I have been saved. I thank you, and hope to one day return the act and glorify you in full through my actions; so that others may join in your cause, and have the truth revealed to them as it has been revealed to me.
