mercyme2014
Disciple of Prayer
I first want to thank you all beautiful people who take the time to pray for me and for others. Today was a great day to start off eventually throughout the day. I stepped out with my sister to run an errand when I came back home all the locks on the door were locked and windows and blinds were shut closed. I thought something was happening so I decided to open the back door and when I came inside my husband was very upset calling me a psycho and because I was trying to open the door. I later found out he was watching pornography and that just made me feel worse. I have been trying to lose weight and just seen him do that breaks my heart and brings my confidence to the lowest ways possible. He is very controlling and I understand God doesn't like divorce but I feel emotionally hurt and on top of that there's no intimacy between us because he doesn't want to. Sorry I don't mean to put it all out there but I am heartbroken. He controls everything even the kind of food I sometimes want to eat. I have been praying a lot for him and talking to him about God more and more because he isn't interested in going to church. Holidays are also coming up and he doesn't want me to spend the holidays with my family and he doesn't want them to come over to our home. I have tried to be patient and understanding to him but it seems he doesn't reciprocate the same love and affection and understanding I give him. He never tells me he loves me or hugs me just because. He also makes comments about my weight and constantly criticizes me about everything I do. I apologize but I am emotional and I need encouragement. Thank you and God bless.
