Feeling Apart From God

[forhisglory4562]

Well, where to start? I went through a painful divorce a while back. It was a time when I was never closer to God or leaned on him more. I have steadied myself and felt like things were getting back to normal. But, recently, I found myself falling into a sinful relationship with someone. It has left me far from God and feeling really bad. Twice this past week, a passage has come up about confessing your sins to each other and the prayers of a righteous man are powerful and effective. I am in need of prayer. I cannot seem to bring myself to come to God. It feels too bad. I need prayer to heal this pain and clear the path back to God. Thanks.

 

[renegademama71]

God is the same as He was when he helped you through a difficult divorce--He has not changed nor abandoned you! His forgiveness starts with asking, but have you done that? Then, you must forgive yourself and try not to repeat the same mistakes. It is hard, but you've been through a lot so you know that you are worthy of a healthy relationship. I pray that you will find your worth in God's love for you, forgive yourself, and let God lead for a while. He won't steer you wrong!

 

[K-J]

I stand in agreement with this prayer. Remember, a journey of a thousand miles starts with that first step. Nothing you have done is a mystery to God, He already knows. Come to His throne of mercy and grace, get on your knees and confess your sin, then accept the pardon that was purchased for YOU by Jesus Christ Himself. Be washed in the blood and begin to heal...you deserve it and it's waiting for you.

God is the same as He was when he helped you through a difficult divorce--He has not changed nor abandoned you! His forgiveness starts with asking, but have you done that? Then, you must forgive yourself and try not to repeat the same mistakes. It is hard, but you've been through a lot so you know that you are worthy of a healthy relationship. I pray that you will find your worth in God's love for you, forgive yourself, and let God lead for a while. He won't steer you wrong!

 

[forhisglory4562]

I have asked, over and over and it is me I know, keeping us apart. He is there I know, I feel like Adam and Eve hiding in the garden.

 

[Harold]

Forhisglory, all I could try to tell you is come to Him as you are, He will prepare You for His service, we can't do it the way He does it. I feel the same way sometimes, like I'm not worthy to even call upon His name, but then I'm reminded of the scripture about cleaning the inside of the cup, that will in turn clean the outside. We can clean the outside up, but He is the one who truly cleans us inside and out. Go to Him just as you are, admit what you think is keeping you apart from Him and He will do the rest. I'm proud of you, you've taken the first steps, just keep following Him.

 

[forhisglory4562]

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers. It is hard to sort out everything. My heart is still broken and it is so much worse because I still feel apart from Him. How else do you heal? I wonder why I still feel so far away when I know He forgives me. I can't get past it.

 

[Harold]

forhisglory, so many times it is hard to talk with knowledge about something when we only see a glimpse of that persons life. What keeps coming to me as I read your requests is, the sin that you think is keeping you away, have you not only confessed that sin but walked away from it too. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but something is just leading me to ask if you have gotten rid of this sinful relationship in your life. If not, leave that burden at the cross and He is right there ready to pick you up.

 

[forhisglory4562]

The relationship is gone, but it was not my doing. Maybe that is what is so disturbing. I don't know if I would've ended it and I knew I really had to. I ended up brokenhearted and far from God at the same time. I thought in my mind I would never be where I am. I was sure I would do the right thing,.... but I did not. I can't figure out why it was so easy for me to do the wrong thing. And,..... even though I hate it, I guess I am afraid I will repeat it since it happened when I thought it never would. Make sense? I was so sure it would be a no brainer for me... and it was not.