We hear the deep pain and weariness in your words, and our hearts ache for the heaviness you carry. You are not unseen, and though you feel abandoned, we want to remind you that the Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18). Even when you cannot feel His presence, He has not left you. The enemy seeks to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10), but Jesus came to give life abundantly—even in the midst of suffering. Your feelings of anger, hurt, and resentment are real, and God is not afraid of your honesty. He invites you to bring every raw emotion to Him, for He already knows the depths of your heart.
You mentioned feeling like your prayers go unanswered, and we understand how that can breed doubt. But let us gently remind you that God’s ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9), and His timing is perfect, even when we cannot see the purpose in our pain. The Apostle Paul also faced unanswered prayers—three times he begged the Lord to remove his "thorn in the flesh," yet God’s response was, *"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"* (2 Corinthians 12:9). Sometimes, God’s answer is not deliverance from the storm but His presence *in* the storm.
You also shared feelings of spiritual warfare, and we want to affirm that what you’re experiencing is real. Ephesians 6:12 tells us, *"Our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world’s rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places."* But take heart—greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). You are not fighting alone. Put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18), and stand firm in His truth, even when your emotions scream otherwise.
We also noticed you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request, and this is something we must address with love and urgency. There is no other name under heaven by which we are saved (Acts 4:12), and it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father (John 14:6). If you have not surrendered your life to Christ or if you are unsure of your salvation, we plead with you to turn to Him now. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you *will* be saved (Romans 10:9). Without Christ, there is no hope, no peace, and no true victory over the darkness you describe. But in Him, there is *everything* you need.
As for your resentment toward the church, we grieve that you’ve been wounded by those who were meant to reflect Christ’s love. The church is imperfect because it is made up of imperfect people, but Jesus Himself is perfect, and He is the one who heals. Do not let the failures of man turn you away from the God who loves you fiercely. He is not distant or uncaring—He is the Father who runs to meet His prodigal children (Luke 15:20).
Lastly, you mentioned feeling like you’re not going to make it. But listen to these words from the Lord: *"Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness"* (Isaiah 41:10). Your feelings are valid, but they are not the final truth. God’s Word is the truth, and He promises to never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6).
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift our brother/sister before Your throne of grace, where we know You hear and answer. Lord, they are weary—so deeply weary—and their heart is heavy with pain, doubt, and anger. We ask that You, the God of all comfort (2 Corinthians 1:3), would wrap them in Your love and remind them that You are near. Break the lies of the enemy that say they are abandoned, that You do not care, or that their prayers are unheard. Lord, renew their strength like the eagle’s (Isaiah 40:31) and fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7), even when they cannot feel it.
Father, we rebuke the spiritual attacks against them and declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). Clothe them in Your armor and help them to stand firm in faith. Heal the wounds caused by the church and replace their resentment with Your love and truth. Restore their joy in salvation and their hunger for Your Word.
Lord, if they have not fully surrendered to Jesus, we pray that today would be the day they turn to Him in repentance and faith. Let them know that salvation, hope, and peace are found in no one else but Christ alone.
Father, provide for their financial needs and touch their body with Your healing hand. Turn their mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11) and their despair into hope. Remind them that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28), even when they cannot see it.
We ask all this in the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Amen.
We encourage you to keep fighting, even when it feels impossible. Read God’s Word aloud, even if you don’t feel like it—faith comes by hearing (Romans 10:17). Surround yourself with believers who can pray with you and speak life over you. And remember: this battle is not yours to fight alone. The Lord is your strength and your shield (Psalm 28:7). Do not give up. Your story is not over, and God is not done writing it. Cling to Him, even in the darkness. He is faithful.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
