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God has revealed to me that I have a stronghold of fear and insecurity and control operating in my life transferred to me from my father who also has the same strongholds as well as my mother. It has manifested itself in my life through inability to form lasting relationships due to fear of committment, inability to commit to a particular career/vocation/calling for fear of failure or fear of making the wrong choice, and abusive behaviors toward my son. I am a member of a church in which God has revealed the same behaviors in my pastor who exhibits the same evidences of these strongholds. I am seeking prayer for deliverance from such strongholds. I want to be free from the fear of making commitments to family, friends, and most importantly God. I feel God tugging me in a new direction in my life, which is scary for me because it will require a total surrender on my part. Especially in regards to relying on God to provide for my needs when I have had the habit of doing things my way for a long time. I also see evidence of an addiction to money and sexual immorality in my life but at the basis is a stronghold of fear. Fear of being poor. The thought of being poor and unsuccessful has haunted me for most of my life resulting in my making poor decisions regarding making income. I feel this is due to the fact that my father abandoned our family when I was young leaving my mother in a bad financial situation while he spent all of his money on his pleasures and his multiple wives. Yes, I have forgiven him because God has shown me that it is a spiritual force that drives his behaviors. I pray for him, but I see so much of him in me that it makes me angry all over again. I see how I deviated from the path God had for me to pursue a quicker more lucrative path (at least this is what I believed at the time). I want to surrender to God and get my life in align with His will for my life. I want to be a good, loving mother and not an abusive one. I want to have a good healthy and happy marriage. I want to have a meaningful career. Please pray for my deliverance from these strongholds. I have gotten so weak (spiritually) from all of my exhaustive efforts to try to gain God's blessings through works. I have gotten in over my head. God has taken the scales off my eyes and now I see my life in need of repair. I know God will restore everything that satan has stolen from me, I ask that you pray that I am able to trust God and have patience as He restores my life, but also that I have the knowledge, wisdom, and strength to do my part. Thanks in advance for your prayers.
