I will pray especially hard for this request. I am in the same boat, heavily depressed and with mega-anxiety. It is so painful, worse than physical pain in some ways. And people just don't understand it's a real disability. I am not trying to give you unsolicited advice, but medication and counseling can really help. I currently attend dialectical behavior therapy (DBT). It's a class with real homework. Lasts 26 weeks. Teaches you all sorts of ways to cope, including with anxiety. It has helped me very much. God be with you.