lognlegs81
Servant of All
Father God, please hear my cries. I feel I have no purpose, or meaning. Please Father let me mother a child. That is the big hole I have in my heart. Please Father bring us fertility. I will raise that child to know and love you. I live with deep depression, anxiety, and other mental disorders. Father I know I have a purpose in you. I know I heard you voice tell me I will bear a child. I just don't feel normal. This is the best I have ever had it in life. Thanks to you Lord. However, my mental health is the worst it's ever been. I am even getting help and everything. God I am being tortured. I feel very un-normal. Father I can't go on like this. My appetite is so bad I eat, then a half hour later I am starving like I never ate. God I hate being hungry. Please Father I am in hell. I should be happy. My anxiety is through the roof. I just want to be whole and normal. Please Father take me away if this is how my life is. I am so depressed. God I need your serenity. Forgive me Father because I don't live exactly how the Bible says to. But please hear my cries. Heal me Father. Help me with my struggles with food. Please Father I just want to serve you the best I can, have a family, and be normal. I feel hopeless. I just want to sleep forever because that is my break away from this hell I am in. I know you will never leave or forsake me. Please move mountains in my life. Please I am desperate. Please move in my life. I am in tears, severely depressed, jealous of people who have health issues. I feel like they are lucky because they may die before me. I have no reason to feel this way. I want God to take me home. I can't deal with this anymore. Or God please injure me or something (I doubt He will but I feel like this) I just want to cry all day. I have to go to work. I am afraid to eat because I am afraid that torture of hunger will come back. I just want to go home to heaven.
