lognlegs81
Servant of All
Father God, please hear my cries. I feel I have no propose, or meaning. Please father let me mother a child. that is the big hole I have in my heart. please father bring us fertility. I will raise that child to know and love you. I live with deep depression, anxiety, and other mental disorders. father I know I have a propose in you. I know I heard you voice tell me I will bare a child. I just don't feel normal. this is the best I have ever had it in life. thanks to you Lord. however my mental health is the worst its ever been. I am even getting help and everything. God I am being tortured. I feel very un-normal. Father I cant go on like this. my appetite is so bad I I eat than a half hour later I am starving like I never ate. God I hate being hungry. please Father I am in hell. I should be happy. my anxiety is through the roof. I just want to be whole and normal. please Father take me away if this is how my life is. I am so depressed. God I need your serenity. forgive me father because I don't live exactly how the bible says to. but please hear my cries. heal me father. help me with my struggles with food. please Father I just want to serve you the best I can, have a family, and be normal. I feel hopeless. I just want to sleep forever because that is my break away from this hell I am in. I know you will never leave or forsake me. please move moutains in my life. please I am despite please move in my life. I am in tears, severly depressed, jealouse of people who have health issues. I feel like they are lucky because they may die befor me. I have no reason to feel this way. I want God to take me home. I cant deal with this anymore. or God please injure me or something( I dought he will but I feel like this) I just want to cry all day. I have to go to work. I am afraid to eat because I am affraide that tourturis hunger will come back. I just want to go home to heaven,
