We hear the deep pain and spiritual burden you are carrying, and we grieve with you over the brokenness in your family and the relentless attacks you face, especially during your time of vulnerability. Your struggle with PMDD and the heightened spiritual warfare during your cycle is not unseen by God. The enemy often exploits our weakest moments, but we must remember that our battle is not against flesh and blood but against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places (Ephesians 6:12). Your family may be used as instruments of the enemy, but they are not beyond the reach of God’s redemption—though that redemption may require boundaries, prayer, and sometimes separation for your own protection and healing.
It is heartbreaking to hear how those who should love and protect you have instead become sources of abuse and betrayal. The Bible warns us that in the last days, many will have the appearance of godliness but deny its power (2 Timothy 3:5). Your discernment about the lack of genuine fruit in their lives is important, for Jesus said, “By their fruits you will know them” (Matthew 7:16). If their lives do not reflect the love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control that come from the Holy Spirit (Galatians 5:22-23), then their claim to faith may be empty. This does not mean you should give up hope for them, but it does mean you must prioritize your own spiritual and emotional safety.
Your desire for unconditional love is a godly one, for we are created to be loved perfectly by our Heavenly Father and to reflect that love in healthy, Christ-centered relationships. The void you feel is an echo of the love God wants to pour into your life. He is the only One who can love you without fail, and He calls you to find your identity and security in Him alone. Psalm 27:10 says, “When my father and my mother abandon me, then Yahweh will take me up.” Even if your earthly family fails you, God will never leave you nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6). He sees your tears, hears your cries, and is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18).
That said, we must also address the reality of the spiritual oppression in your family. You mentioned your father’s involvement in voodoo and the generational curses that may be at play. The Bible is clear that we are not to dabble in the occult or any form of darkness, for these things open doors to demonic influence (Deuteronomy 18:10-12). Generational sins can indeed affect families, but the blood of Jesus is more powerful than any curse (Galatians 3:13). You have authority in Christ to break these chains, and we encourage you to stand firm in prayer, renouncing any ties to darkness in your family line and claiming the victory of Christ over your life.
At the same time, we must also encourage you to examine your own heart. You mentioned believing you may have an undiagnosed personality disorder, and while we rejoice that Christ has brought healing to many areas of your life, it is important to continue seeking His transformation in all things. None of us are without our struggles, and the Lord calls us to humility and self-examination (Lamentations 3:40). If there are areas where you need further healing or growth, bring them before the Lord. He is faithful to complete the work He has begun in you (Philippians 1:6).
As for your family, the Bible does not require you to subject yourself to abuse. While we are called to honor our parents (Ephesians 6:2), this does not mean enabling sinful or harmful behavior. It is wise and biblical to set boundaries for your own protection. Jesus Himself distanced Himself from those who sought to harm Him, and there were times He chose to withdraw from those who rejected His message (Matthew 12:14-15, Luke 4:28-30). You are not obligated to endure mistreatment in the name of “family.” Proverbs 22:24-25 warns, “Don’t befriend a hot-tempered man, and don’t associate with one who harbors anger: lest you learn his ways, and ensnare your soul.” Sometimes, love requires distance.
We also want to gently address your mention of not feeling the support you give to others reciprocated. While it is natural to desire mutual care in relationships, we must be careful not to place our hope in people, who will always fail us in some way. Even the apostle Paul experienced abandonment by those he loved (2 Timothy 4:16), yet he found strength in the Lord. Your worth is not determined by how others treat you, but by how Christ sees you—a beloved daughter, redeemed and cherished.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our sister to You, knowing that You are the God who sees her pain, who collects her tears in a bottle (Psalm 56:8). Lord, we ask that You would be her refuge and strength, her ever-present help in trouble (Psalm 46:1). We rebuke the schemes of the enemy against her, especially during her time of vulnerability. Satan, we command you in the name of Jesus to flee from her, for greater is He who is in her than he who is in the world (1 John 4:4). We break every generational curse, every tie to darkness, and every demonic assignment against her mind, body, and spirit. We declare that no weapon formed against her shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17).
Lord, we ask for Your supernatural peace to guard her heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7). Heal her from the wounds of abuse and betrayal, and restore her soul. Give her wisdom to know how to set godly boundaries with her family, and grant her the strength to walk in forgiveness without enabling harm. Father, we pray that You would surround her with godly community—people who will love her as You do, who will stand with her in prayer and support her in truth. If it is Your will, soften the hearts of her family members and bring them to true repentance. But even if they do not change, let her find her security in You alone.
We pray for her physical body, that You would ease the symptoms of PMDD and give her relief. Let this time of her cycle no longer be a season of dread but a reminder of Your faithfulness to sustain her. Fill her with Your Holy Spirit, that she may walk in victory and not in fear.
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would prepare her for a godly husband one day, if it is Your will—a man who will love her as Christ loves the church (Ephesians 5:25), who will cherish and protect her. Until then, be her defender, her provider, and her comforter.
We pray all these things in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, who has conquered sin, death, and the grave. Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to continue seeking the Lord daily through His Word and prayer. Memorize scriptures that remind you of His love and promises, such as Zephaniah 3:17: “Yahweh, your God, is among you, a mighty one who will save. He will rejoice over you with joy. He will calm you in His love. He will rejoice over you with singing.” You are not alone in this battle. Keep fighting the good fight of faith, and trust that God will bring justice and healing in His perfect timing.