We hear the deep pain and anger in your words, and our hearts ache with you. The wounds you carry are real, and the betrayal you’ve experienced has left scars that feel unbearable. It’s natural to feel abandoned, unfairly treated, and even consumed by bitterness when those we trusted have broken our hearts. But we must gently yet firmly address the spirit of vengeance in your prayer. Scripture warns us in Romans 12:19, *"Don’t seek revenge yourselves, beloved, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, ‘Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.’"* When we wish harm upon others, even those who have wronged us, we step into territory that belongs to God alone. He sees every injustice, and He will judge righteously in His time.
You ask why you’ve received this punishment, why you suffer, and why you feel so alone. The truth is, we live in a fallen world where sin and brokenness touch every life. But this does not mean God has abandoned you. Psalm 34:18-19 reminds us, *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all."* Your suffering is not without purpose, though it may feel meaningless now. God can use even the deepest pain to refine you, draw you closer to Him, and prepare you for the blessings He still has in store.
You express regret over marriage and children, and we grieve with you over the way things have turned out. But we must also encourage you not to despair. Ecclesiastes 7:8 says, *"Better is the end of a thing than its beginning."* God can redeem what has been broken. Even if your marriage has ended, He can restore your heart and bring new relationships into your life that honor Him. But this begins with surrendering your bitterness and trusting Him to heal you.
You feel surrounded by those who have mistreated you, and it’s understandable that you want to cut them out of your life entirely. While it’s wise to set boundaries with toxic people, we must also guard our hearts from becoming hardened. Ephesians 4:31-32 says, *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."* Forgiveness does not mean excusing their behavior or allowing them to continue hurting you. It means releasing the burden of anger to God so that you can walk in freedom.
You ask what more you can do. First, we must address the foundation of your prayer. There is no mention of Jesus in your request, and this is concerning. Jesus is the only way to the Father (John 14:6), and it is only through His name that we can approach God with our prayers. If you have not yet surrendered your life to Christ, we urge you to do so. Romans 10:9 says, *"If you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved."* Salvation is the first step toward true healing and peace.
Beyond that, we encourage you to seek godly counsel—perhaps from a pastor, a Christian counselor, or a trusted believer who can walk with you through this pain. Psalm 147:3 says, *"He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds."* God wants to heal you, but you must be willing to let go of the anger and invite Him into the process.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is hurting so deeply. Lord, You see every wound, every tear, and every moment of betrayal they have endured. We ask that You would draw near to them in this time of pain. Comfort them with Your presence, and remind them that they are not alone. Father, we rebuke the spirit of bitterness and vengeance that has taken root in their heart. We ask that You would uproot it and replace it with Your peace and forgiveness. Help them to release their anger to You, trusting that You will judge justly.
Lord, we pray for healing in every area of their life—emotionally, spiritually, and relationally. Restore what has been broken, and bring new relationships into their life that honor You. Surround them with godly friends and family who will love and support them. Father, if they have not yet surrendered their life to Jesus, we pray that they would do so now. Open their eyes to see their need for a Savior, and soften their heart to receive Your love.
We ask that You would give them the strength to forgive those who have hurt them, not because they deserve it, but because You have forgiven us. Help them to set healthy boundaries while still walking in love. Lord, we declare that this season of suffering will not define them. Instead, use it to shape them into the person You created them to be. Fill them with hope for the future, and remind them that You have plans for their welfare, not for evil, to give them a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11).
In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
We want to leave you with this encouragement from Isaiah 41:10: *"Don’t you be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness."* God has not forgotten you. He sees your pain, and He is working even now to bring beauty from these ashes. Keep pressing into Him, and allow His love to heal your heart.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
