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cheeksmd
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I can't even stop crying long enough to write this request. I am a 31 year old mom of 3 young children. I am in graduate school and doing my best to be a good mom and good person. I have always tried to be a good person and care about others and help others; I forgive easily, trust easily, but hurt easily too. And for so much of my life there has been a lot of sadness, especially the past 6 years. I graduated from college, never got into trouble and had a great job, but all I ever wanted was a family because mine was not good. I was so lonely. I fell in love and started a family with someone I really did not know well. It's easy for me to love someone. I just wanted someone to love and take care of, not thinking kindness would be abused. I have three children with my ex-fiance and his verbal and physical abuse has basically erased all my self-esteem. And that's hard for me to say becuase I'm always mentoring children to not fall prey to what I have. Please pray to God to take my sadness away. Its so hard. I put on a brave face and have endured so much just to have a chance for my children to have a family with their mom and dad together because I never had that. But the beatings, verbal abuse, and just plain meaness I have endured has left me a broken person. I love my children and take joy in them but I feel so much guilt because I don't want them to have a void in their lives the way I did without a good family structure. Please pray for me to have stregnth and emotional wellness.
