Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have never felt so alone. Through high school I was always very quiet and never had many friends. I played sports and had a lot of teammates I would consider family but I never really talked to any of them outside of the sport. I had one friend during high school that I would consider my best friend but she definitely wouldn't, simply because she was the only person i really hung out with and it was mostly during practice and games. I am now two years out of high school and I can honestly say that nobody really cares I am around. I have people who get happy to see me and are happy that I came back to coach with the team I used to play on but when it comes down to it, if I were no longer around they wouldn't be hurt about it too long. I am in no means suicidal and will never be but the truth of the matter hurts me deeply inside and lately I have been feeling depressed about it. In saying that nobody would miss me I am not trying to be dramatic, I can honestly say that I don't mean much to anybody I know. I have recently tried reaching out to a person and trying to have a new friend to lean on but she suddenly stopped speaking me and wont tell me why. I have had close friends in the past but they have all forgotten about me and stopped talking to me. Basically, I would like whoever takes the time to read this to pray that I find peace with this through God and that I trust in him when I am feeling weak and alone. Please pray that I find someone in my life to confide in and have a shoulder to cry on and to see me for who I really am. I just want a friend, someone to tell all of my problems and inner feelings because I cant keep holding them all in.
