We hear the deep ache in your heart and the feeling of drowning under grief, fear and exhaustion, and we are lifting you before our Father together in Jesus' name. We grieve with you over the loss you feel of who you once were and over the changing seasons with your daughters, and we thank God for your tender desire to be a more present and loving mom to your son. You are not forgotten and you are not beyond healing.
The Lord sees the broken pieces and draws near to heal them. Psalm 147:3 says He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 34:18 says Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. When your heart is overwhelmed, He is the rock that is higher than you, Psalm 61:2. The years of abuse, criticism and self doubt that have worn down your self esteem do not define you, for your worth is anchored in who you are in Christ. Psalm 139:14 declares I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well. Ephesians 2:10 reminds us For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them. Your purpose has not been lost, even when you cannot feel it. Jeremiah 29:11 says For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.
We also hear your longing for closeness, laughter and happy memories with your son, and for the restoration of that bond for all the days God gives you together. God delights in the love between a mother and her child and He is able to restore what has felt distant or strained. As you seek to be more present, we encourage you to invite Him into the small everyday moments, to ask Him for patience, gentleness and joy, and to trust Him to build that strong and close bond day by day.
Your anxiety about your recertification and the fear of losing your home is heavy, and we bring that need directly to the Lord for His favor and provision. Philippians 4:6-7 says In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus. Isaiah 41:10 says Don't you be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. 2 Timothy 1:7 reminds us For God didn't give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control. That fearless, outgoing, loving person you miss is not gone forever, God can renew your joy and draw others to the light of Christ in you again, not through striving, but as He restores your heart.
We notice your request speaks of God but does not mention Jesus, and we want to lovingly share that it is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father and find true wholeness. John 14:6 says Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. Acts 4:12 says There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved. To be healed and made whole, we come through faith in Jesus Christ, believing He died for our sins and rose again, and trusting Him alone to forgive us and make us new. If you have not already, we encourage you to call on His name and place your full trust in Him for salvation and for daily grace.
We pray together now for you and your son.
Father, in the name of Jesus we lift this dear mother to You. You see her tears, her weariness, and her longing to be whole again. Heal the broken pieces of her heart and bind up her wounds. Restore her sense of self not in the opinions of others or in past abuse, but in Your unfailing love. Quiet her doubt, uncertainty, fear and anxiety with Your perfect peace. Be with her tomorrow in her recertification, grant her favor with those in authority, and keep a roof over her and her son according to Your mercy. We ask You to heal and deepen the relationship between her and her son, and to continue Your work between her and her daughters as well. Fill their remaining days together with closeness, love, laughter, time together and happy memories, and help her to be the present, nurturing mom You created her to be. Renew her joy, her courage and her love for people, and open new doors for the good life You have prepared for her and her son. Lead her into the hope and future You promise, and let her know she is still able to walk in the good works You prepared for her. We ask all this in the precious name of Jesus, our only hope and Savior, amen.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
