Anonymous
Beloved of All
I really wish Dreams would come true. Not nighttime dreams although there have been a few I was seriously praying were true.
In life I have always heard and been told that if you work hard enough your Dreams will come to fruition. That is a BOLD FACE LIE PEOPLE!!!!! because GOD is in control and we must suffer because Jesus suffered. Our Dreams are not God's plan.
It would be nice to figure out what that plan is because I haven't gotten an answer yet other than my husband is never going to change his unhealthy habits, nor his use of daily swear words which includes taking the Lord's name in vain, nor his assinine attitude, nor his cursing me, nor his putting his wants ahead of our needs, nor his spending money we don't have, nor his need to put us in debt, nor his constant I want and I'm going to get. Just this morning I was cursed because I put his coffee in a to go cup because he got called into work early and said he had to be there now. I was trying to be helpful. Instead, I get cursed and told he had to make his breathing treatment before he could leave. Well he said he had to be there "now". Constantly having to walk on eggshells around him and never know what or how to say anything to him or anyone else. Our home is literally falling apart yet he is more concerned with finding another old lawn mower or tractor to take on his vacation and to find a newer camper for this same vacation.
I am at a loss. Why should I strive for anything? I am losing my interest in church, in people in general. I pray. I searched the Bible. I try to be happy but fail. My children need, yes need, my assistance but I am unable to give it to them so I cry and pray to no avail.. I feel like such a failure. But life goes on.
My husband and I are on opposite ends of the pole in so many ways. Maybe your prayers will help me find the answers I need.
Thank you in advance for your prayers. In Jesus name. Amen!!
In life I have always heard and been told that if you work hard enough your Dreams will come to fruition. That is a BOLD FACE LIE PEOPLE!!!!! because GOD is in control and we must suffer because Jesus suffered. Our Dreams are not God's plan.
It would be nice to figure out what that plan is because I haven't gotten an answer yet other than my husband is never going to change his unhealthy habits, nor his use of daily swear words which includes taking the Lord's name in vain, nor his assinine attitude, nor his cursing me, nor his putting his wants ahead of our needs, nor his spending money we don't have, nor his need to put us in debt, nor his constant I want and I'm going to get. Just this morning I was cursed because I put his coffee in a to go cup because he got called into work early and said he had to be there now. I was trying to be helpful. Instead, I get cursed and told he had to make his breathing treatment before he could leave. Well he said he had to be there "now". Constantly having to walk on eggshells around him and never know what or how to say anything to him or anyone else. Our home is literally falling apart yet he is more concerned with finding another old lawn mower or tractor to take on his vacation and to find a newer camper for this same vacation.
I am at a loss. Why should I strive for anything? I am losing my interest in church, in people in general. I pray. I searched the Bible. I try to be happy but fail. My children need, yes need, my assistance but I am unable to give it to them so I cry and pray to no avail.. I feel like such a failure. But life goes on.
My husband and I are on opposite ends of the pole in so many ways. Maybe your prayers will help me find the answers I need.
Thank you in advance for your prayers. In Jesus name. Amen!!
