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I'm slowly losing my mind.I wish I could say it'll soon pass. I'm severly depressed.things ARE NOT turning around.I need a Miracle,lord! I've been ATTACKED by the enemy so badly, I don't know if I can ever bounce back.I was angry w/ you yesterday,on my way to church-i could barley sit thru service bc I felt YOU and all your Promises are a were a sham to me-that You never meant to keep any of it to me.YOU NEVER have answred my prayers, in 10 years? Why should I do for you anything that You want?You took my father,my friends-they all moved away,my family memebers use+abuse me,I'm made the scorn of a fool.I'm unable to Praise you,eexcept sarcastically.help me-i may be lost for good if you don't intervene.I don't do drugs,have casual sex,live in sin. I do tithe, pray 4 others,offer special gifts,help the poor.take care of my sick mom,why HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME IN MY HOUR OF NEED?Whare is the Justice you promise and have asked us to pray for?I stand on Isiah 54-I truly need You to honor your word-BE REAL TO ME as in this scripture!Don't allow the wicked to Magnify themselves over me,don't make me the SCORN of fools anymore!(Psalms-words from David, not me-so DON't say I'm complaing -these are David's cries out to the Lord!)In jesus'nme,Amen.Help me if You care at all?I have been faithful in tithes,prayer,faith,expectation-I lost it yesterday,angry+BACKED IN A CORNER.That has been my sin-I don't need scoffers,critics or the unedifying musings of Job's friends.I've declared,for my shame ,give me double for almost 15 years.when will it come to pass?You are not a man that you should lie(Numbers23) so please fulfill your word,Abba?I have nothing,no body to talk to-no dad anymore,no husband,boyfriend,no friends who understand -they have husabnds,families,etc.I'm a BIG Loser compared to them...Do You REALLy NOT WITHOLD any goos thing from a righteous man? I've been good+waiting...Will you make good on your word,lord, if not for me-a mere nothing, but for your namesake?You are no respecter of persons...
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