We hear the deep weariness and pain in your words, and our hearts ache for the burdens you are carrying—health struggles, financial hardship, the threat of eviction, and the crushing weight of discouragement. You have cried out to the Father in Jesus’ name, and that is exactly where your hope must remain, for He alone is your refuge and strength, even when all earthly help seems to fail. The fact that you are still turning to Him in this moment, even in your faithlessness, is evidence that His Spirit is still at work in you, holding you close.
The Psalmist David often poured out his despair before the Lord, yet he always returned to this truth: *"Why are you in despair, my soul? Why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God! For I shall still praise him for the saving help of his presence."* (Psalm 42:5, WEB). Your feelings of defeat are real, but they are not the final word. God has not abandoned you, even when the resources of man fail. Remember the words of Jesus: *"Don’t be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn’t life more than food, and the body more than clothing? See the birds of the sky, that they don’t sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns. Your heavenly Father feeds them. Aren’t you of much more value than they?"* (Matthew 6:25-26, WEB). Your Heavenly Father knows your needs—every single one—and He is not indifferent to your suffering.
Yet we must also address something tenderly but firmly: your statement that you feel "faithless" is something the Lord wants to meet with His grace. Faith is not something you muster up in your own strength; it is a gift from God (Ephesians 2:8-9). Even when your faith wavers, He remains faithful (2 Timothy 2:13). Cry out to Him honestly, as you have done, and ask Him to strengthen your trust in Him. The father of the demon-possessed boy in Mark 9:24 cried, *"I believe. Help my unbelief!"*—and Jesus met him right there. You can do the same.
As for the idea that eviction might be the only way to receive help, we urge you to resist this line of thinking. While it’s true that God can use even our lowest moments to provide for us, we must not assume that suffering is the *only* path to His intervention. Instead, let us pray for His provision *before* that point, trusting that He can open doors no man can shut (Revelation 3:8). Have you reached out to your local church body? The Church is called to bear one another’s burdens (Galatians 6:2), and often, the hands and feet of Jesus come in the form of brothers and sisters in Christ who can offer practical help, prayer, and encouragement. If you haven’t already, we strongly encourage you to share your needs with your pastor or a trusted believer who can walk alongside you.
We also want to gently remind you that your worth is not tied to your circumstances or what others have done to you. You mentioned being "abused so badly," and we grieve with you over that pain. The Lord sees every wound, every injustice, and He is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). He does not define you by what has been done to you but by the price He paid for you—His own Son’s life. You are deeply loved, and your suffering is not unseen by Him.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we lift up our brother/sister to You, knowing that You are the God who sees and hears every cry of Your children. Lord, they are weary—body, soul, and spirit—and they feel as though they cannot take another step. But You are the one who gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak (Isaiah 40:29). We ask that You would meet them in this moment of deep discouragement. Renew their hope in You, Lord, and remind them that You are their Provider, their Healer, and their Deliverer.
Father, we pray for a supernatural breakthrough in their health. Touch their body, Lord, and bring restoration where there is brokenness. We ask for wisdom for their doctors and for divine connections to the right resources and people who can help. You own the cattle on a thousand hills (Psalm 50:10), and nothing is too difficult for You. Open doors of provision for their financial needs, Lord, and protect them from eviction. Let them see Your hand move in ways that leave no doubt it was You.
We also pray for healing from the wounds of abuse they have endured. Father, bind up their broken heart and replace their pain with Your peace. Let them know, deep in their soul, that they are not defined by what has been done to them but by who You say they are—a child of God, redeemed and beloved.
Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and faithlessness that seeks to overwhelm them. Fill them afresh with Your Holy Spirit, who is their Comforter and Counselor. Give them the grace to take one step at a time, trusting You for each one. Surround them with Your people who can offer support, prayer, and practical help.
Finally, Father, we thank You that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28), even when they cannot see it. Strengthen their faith, Lord, and let them experience Your presence in a tangible way. May they rise from this place of weariness with a testimony of Your faithfulness.
In the mighty and precious name of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to keep seeking the Lord, even in small ways. Read His Word, even if it’s just a verse or two. Worship music can lift your spirit—put on a hymn or a song that declares His goodness. And reach out to your church family. You are not meant to walk this path alone. If you feel you have no one, we are praying for you, and we believe God will connect you with the right people.
Lastly, we want to leave you with this promise: *"Cast your burden on Yahweh, and he will sustain you. He will never allow the righteous to be moved."* (Psalm 55:22, WEB). Give Him every worry, every fear, and every need. He is strong enough to carry it all.