direction

[demo]

I need help. My life seems to have taken a turn for the worse, and every time in my heart when I decide to set things right and get on the straight and narrow, it seems to only get worse. I have compromised on my integrity, and I have tried a lot of shortcuts; however, they all lead to more troubles. I use drugs, I drink, smoke, and I am sexually active. These were originally meant to be escape routes for me, but the whole lifestyle feels like walking on quicksand, and I can't seem to find my way out. I would like to have a relationship with God, but I never seem to be able to make it last longer than a week. It feels like work rather than something pleasurable. I need help.

I would also like direction concerning my life partner. I have met someone who my heart tells me is the one, but the problem is how can I believe my heart when it is not being guided by God? Aside from that, the conversation we have is not edifying, and there is a lot of falsehood on my part with regards to my lifestyle. Neither of us is a practicing Christian, we are two continents apart, and are not sleeping together. She happens to be bipolar, and that is a major issue that I really do not know how to deal with. I believe nothing is too hard for God, and he can heal any disease, whether physical or mental, but it's hard to go to him when I know my motivation is selfish. My name is ###.

 

[sabitha]

praying for you amen

 

[Patrick]

Dear Lord I cast all these strongholds of immorality off of ### and I ask that you intervene in a way were there seems no way in the desert. Lord I ask that you give him the power to stand on your word and believe it; I ask that you give him the strenght to seek out a local church were he can meet some healthy Christians that can help him. Lord I pray that you give him wisdom when it comes to His life partner that you will direct him. Lord you are not the author of confusion. So I ask that you settle his mind, body and spirit and help him in the name of Jesus, amen so be it,

Look up ### they are a group that helps men of all ages whom have the same problems that you do and they may be able to steer you into the right direction.