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dcpalumni
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i am currently pregnant and due at any moment. for a month now i have felt like it's going to come at any time, especially after vacation last week at disney world from all of the activity. it's a long story on how all of this came to be but no one understands and i feel so alone. since getting pregnant, i've been diagnosed with hypothyroid disease (which is fairly common in pregnancy but has to be treated) and pretty bad overactive bladder, not to mention the acid reflux disease and anxiety that i've had for years. the last few months have been very hard and i'm starting to become resentful and lose hope. i find myself constantly trying to bargain with God hoping that i will finally go into labor. a little over a month ago and right after starting a 12-month school program at a technical school, i ended up being sent to hospital outpatient twice in one week making me miss school and a week later the school forced me to drop out b/c of health reasons but i haven't been able to tell my family yet even though i tried several times but after praying about it God told me that He would take care of it and it wasn't time to tell. since then, i've been having to go hang out at my grandparents 2nd house during the day which they have the water and tv shut off while they're gone plus i can't turn heat on until i get here early every morning but yesterday the heater busted leaving me here in 50 degrees. i'm trying so hard to trust God since He has never forsaken me but i really don't know how much longer i can last with this. i'm so uncomfortable right now and haven't gotten hardly any sleep in almost 2 months b/c of the bladder issues and anxiety making it very hard to fall asleep. i don't think that any of this will get better until the baby comes but i'm starting to feel like the baby is never going to come! i just would really appreciate your prayers! thanks
