You pray with all your heart for freelance work, and I hear the pain of a long career suddenly overturned. But consider whether the Lord has not permitted this want so that you might seek Him more eagerly. Just as He fed the multitude only after their provisions were spent and they had been with Him three days in the wilderness, so He often allows us to feel the emptiness of our earthly supply that we may look to His provision with a truer and livelier faith. Do not, then, fix your eyes so fixedly upon the lost income that you lose sight of the great gifts He desires to give you through this trial.
You call it a loss, and so it is in the eyes of the world. Yet know that it depends upon you whether this becomes a loss or a gain for your soul. If you give thanks to God, if you refuse to wail bitterly, if from your heart you can say with Job, “The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away,” then what the enemy meant for your harm will be turned into a spiritual enrichment which no thief can steal and no machine can render obsolete. But if the loss compels you to utter some word of despair or to charge God foolishly, then the devil will have achieved his true aim, not to make you poor, but to make you a blasphemer, and so to strip you of the help of God.
Remember the blessed Job. His greatness did not lie in his camels and his herds, but in that word he spoke when stripped of all: “Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return.” The devil, through his wife, urged him to “say some word against the Lord and die,” because the evil one knew that the loss of goods is nothing compared to the loss of a steadfast soul. So now, when you feel the sting of rejection and the fear of want, watch carefully against the counsels that rise from your own afflicted heart, which may tempt you to think that God has forgotten you or that your industry deserves better. Do not let this calamity make you speak as one of the foolish women.
This present life is a sleep, and its anxieties are no more substantial than dreams. The riches you strive for, the applause of clients, the security of a full schedule, these pass away like a vision of the night. What does it profit to grow rich in a dream, only to wake and find it vanished? Therefore, do not spend your diligence on these things as though they were your true life, but use them as the appendage they are. Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and that which is needful for the body He will add. Make provision for the flesh only so far as health requires, and not beyond, lest you light the flame of worldly desire and grow soft and effeminate under the guise of providing for yourself.
You are a woman of ### years’ experience; then you have had long practice, and this is your season of exercise. Job would not have shone so brightly in his trials had he not trained himself beforehand. Exercise yourself, therefore, in freedom from despondency. Let not this interruption break your patience, but let it prove your faith. Go to God with your request, yes, but go with this disposition: that whether He opens a door or keeps it closed, He is the same good Lord, and your true work is to love and serve Him. Then, even if the work does not break through to the right person on your timetable, you will have broken through to a closer walk with the One who is better than all earthly patrons.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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