Hey brother - from personal experience I can relate that until you open up about issues of your past, whether your fault or not, they just fester inside your heart and make you feel ashamed. We all sin, we all make mistakes. Just open your heart to Jesus and ask for His forgiveness and forgive those who have hurt you. This will release the pain and associated emotional bondages within you. Jesus wants nothing more than to carry your problems, fears, worries. He wants you to turn to Him. He loves you more than you could ever imagine. If we think about how He came to earth to live as man and to take on all our sins when He was perfection in every way... and then God distanced Himself from Jesus to judge if Jesus was worthy to cover all our sins... YES Jesus loves you and died for you. He truly loves you. He is your best friend. Dear Father help our brother to find release of his torments, to give him ultimate peace in you. I rebuke all fear, anxiety and despair through the name of Jesus. All spirits of bondage must leave and never return - in the name of Jesus. Thank you Father, in the name of Jesus, amen.