Desperate for answers...

[peytonsmommy]

My name is ###. and I feel so alone. I can't even find the words to put into a prayer...for the last 3 years my life has been in ruins. I thought I met my soulmate about 3 years ago and it turned out to be a very abusive relationship. I try not to let myself think about what it did to me but deep inside I know he broke me. Some days the memories of when we were together just run through my mind ALL DAY! I GAVE UP EVERYTHING...I thought that's what love was... I often wondered why God would let me love someone so destructive, why He wouldn't just take all the feelings away. After about a year in the relationship my stress levels got so high that I couldn't eat, sleep, my hair started to fall out... among many other things he cheated on me and told me I wasn't good enough it still affects my self-esteem... one year ago on Jan 8, 2009, I got pregnant with my son. He was born Oct 7, 2008. He is AMAZING. My world... he melts my heart every time I look into his eyes, think about how this tiny perfect thing grew inside me... He saved me from that relationship... I finally got enough strength to walk away for my Son when I was about 2 months pregnant. I met someone when I was about 4 months pregnant. It seemed to be sent from God. He seemed to love me and care for me and my child he was at every doc. visit and so supportive all the time. Until recently his daughter's mother said they have been seeing each other. He says no way but my heart feels he's lying. But I don't know if it's because I have trust issues or that it's my instinct... I want the best life for my son he always comes first. Lately we argue all the time, try to pray about it but I feel like it's hitting the ceiling and falling back down... I made a promise to God to follow Him and His path for my life when I got pregnant... I have always felt like He has a HUGE plan for me... I'm just stuck and I don't know how to get to where I'm supposed to be... I just feel so lost. Please help me...

 

[SinglemomV]

Lord, I lift ### up to you, Lord she is struggling and needs to know Your Will for her life. ###, I too, was in an abusive relationship in my teens and if it were not for the Grace Of God, I would still to this very day, be affected by that abuse. Go with your instincts ###. Don't doubt yourself or second guess yourself anymore. You deserve to be treated like The Gift from God You Are. I know going through that kind of relationship makes you feel weak and angry at yourself, so now, you have to forgive yourself. You have to move on and know the Lord is holding your hand. The more you are faithful and dedicated to the Lord, by resisting the devils temptations over and over, then the less the devil will be around. He will know You are the Lord's and he can't get you down anymore. So, I pray ### you get unstuck and move ahead straight ahead to your new life with the Lord being first, and everything will turn out fine for you. We all have a time in our life when all we can do is RELY on the Lord, Trust in the Lord, Believe in the Lord, that he promises us he will take care of us if we only really BELIEVE. Give it to him ###, God Will Bless you beyond measure. Lord, give ### the wisdom and knowledge she needs just now, give her faith and strength, Give her patience Lord. Comfort her and Protect her and her little boy. In Jesus Name Amen Keep Praying ###, We are praying too.

 

[llewis34x]

Lord I thank you for ###'s prayer! And I agree with this prayer as I was about to pray the very same. Lord you know I too am a survivor of domestic abuse from my first marriage. And you know that without YOU I would not have had the courage or strength to leave. Lord help ### to see that she is valuable, that she is worthy of Your love, our love, and is worthy of having a good life free from troubles. Lord help ### to release her troubles to you, to let you have every little bit of them and help her to allow you to wash her clean of any guilt, sadness, loneliness, etc. She is your child and you will be there for her during her time of pain and during her time of happiness.

Lord I thank you for hearing our prayers,

Amen