Desperate for answeres...

[peytonsmommy]

My name is Gina. and i feel so alone. i cant even find the words to put into a prayer...for the last 3 years my life has been in ruins. I thought i met my soulmate about 3 years ago and it turned out to be a very abusive relationship. I try not to let my self think about what it did to me but deep inside i know he broke me. somedays the memories ofwhen we were together just run through my mind ALL DAY!I GAVE UP EVERYTHING...i thought thats what love was... i often wondered why god would let me love someone so destructive, why he wouldnt just take all the feelings away. after about a year in the relationship my stress leves got so high that i couldnt eat sleep my hair started to fall out... among many other things he cheated on me and told me i wasnt good enough it still affects my self esteem... one year ago on jan 8 2009 i got pregnant wwith my son.He was born oct 7 2008 He is AMAZING. my world... he melts my heart everytime i look into his eyes think about how this tiny perfect thing grew inside me...He saved me from that relationship...i finally got enough stregnth to walk away for my Son wheni was about 2 months pregnant. I met someone wheni was about 4 months pregnant. it seemed to be sent from god. he seemed to love me and care for me and my child he was at every doc. visit and so supportive all the time. until recently his daughters mother said they have been seeing each other. hes says no way but my heaaart feels hes lying. but i dont know if its because i have trust issues or that its my instinct... i want the best life for my son he always comes first. latley weargue all the tiimei try to pray about it but i feel like its hitting the ceiling and falling back down... i made a promise to god to follow him and his path for my life when i got pregnant... i have always felt like he has a HUGE plan for me... im just stuck and i dont know how to get to where im supposed to be...i just feel so lost. please help me...

Gina

 

[SinglemomV]

Lord, I lift Gina up to you, Lord she is struggling and needs to know Your Will for her life. Gina, I too, was in abusive relationship in my teens and if it were not for the Grace Of God, I would still to this very day, be affected by that abuse. Go with your instincts Gina. Don't doubt yourself or second guess yourself anymore. You deserve to be treated like The Gift from God You Are. I know going through that kind of relationship makes you feel weak and angry at yourself, so now, you have to forgive yourself. You have to move on and know the Lord is holding your hand. The more you are faithful and dedicated to the Lord, by resisting the devils temptations over and over, then the less the devil will be around. He will know You are the Lords and he can't get you down anymore. So, I pray Gina you get unstuck and move ahead straight ahead to you new life with the Lord being first, and everything will turn out fine for you. We all have a time in our life when all we can do is RELY on the Lord, Trust in the Lord, Believe in the Lord, that he promises us he will take care of us if we only really BELIEVE. Give it to him Gina, God Will Bless you beyond measure. Lord, give Gina the wisdom and knowledge she needs just now, give her faith and strength, Give her patience Lord. Comfort her and Protect her and her little boy. In Jesus Name Amen Keep Praying Gina, We are praying too.

 

[llewis34x]

Lord I thank you for SinglemomV's prayer! And I agree with this prayer as I was about to pray the very same. Lord you know I too am a survivor of domestic abuse from my first marriage. And you know that without YOU I would not have had the courage or strength to leave. Lord help Gina to see that she is valuable, that she is worthy of Your love, our love, and is worthy of having a good life free from troubles. Lord help Gina to release her troubles to you, to let you have every little bit of them and help her to allow you to wash her clean of any guilt, sadness, loneliness, etc. She is your child and you will be there for her during her time of pain and during her time of happiness.

Lord I thank you for hearing our prayers,

Amen