Shivani India
Disciple of Prayer
Shivani here from India …I need urgent prayer from a spirit of rejection from a job & relationship.
I still remember it was May 02,2024 my birthday and I was feeling so proud of myself ( & my parents too ) that after so much struggle I managed to get a job and it was my dream role & I was working for 2 biz coaches ( loving , kind ) from UK & Uganda who also believe in Jesus
I was into international high ticket sales and organic marketing.
they were my biggest supporters , I grew so much because of them & I built highly valuable skills modeling their success .. and guess what! They even sent me my salary & extra money as a birthday gift.
Then I remember a day after my birthday , I didn’t receive any msg about my work tasks but I thought I know what to do on every day basis so I would start my work.
Then whole day there was no msg , on 4th may also no update , 2-3 days later … he took me on a zoom call and told me he is having health issues so need to take a break & money won’t come in business so he won’t be able to pay me.
When I asked when I will be able to work for you again … He mentioned once he gets recovered & things in business start working , I can continue.
I don’t know why but I believed that … I said no worries , I would wait.
Then I waited for next 6 months , I messaged and I got to know , he was still figuring things out.
So one day I asked , hey can you please give me a date as my parents have high expectations from me & how long I would keep waiting like this !
He said , honestly I don’t know but I am trying my best , it can be 1,3,6 months , 1 year I don’t know.
That was the day I decided I need to make a decision so we mutually agreed I should find a job here in my country India.
So I had to change my field , I decided to get into digital marketing & I started my digital marketing journey in feb 2025….
I was new to that field so I had to take one course , I had to leave my house & move to a different city which made me start everything from scratch when it comes to my career.
Previously also , even though I was into international high ticket sales and organic marketing , my main field was computer engineering that time also I had to learn everything from scratch about business field as I had only tech skills from engineering.
And later also , I had to learn everything about digital marketing as I mastered my skills into sales & organic marketing.
So why this pattern in my life ! Why near success syndrome?
I successfully finished that course , I understood everything about digital marketing & I was so excited to prepare for interviews , build resumes , apply for jobs & give interviews.
I have been studying since July 2025 , I started applying for jobs in dec 2025.
I have applied to many companies.
Now it’s march 13, 2026 ….. I have been facing rejections after rejections.
It’s so disappointing and discouraging to do the hardwork , study with focus on consistent basis & no desired outcome. I am feeling like giving up.
Forget about getting rejected in interviews… if it happens , I will understand may be I lacked some knowledge or experience so I can learn and improve but what’s the point of studying if I am not even getting a chance to give interviews as my resume is not getting shortlisted in the first place no matter what I do.
My parents , they believed in me , they sent me to another city thinking I deserve a chance to build my career.
So I am feeling deep guilt that I am not making them proud but I also know how much focused I am , how many sacrifices I am making to get a job , how much study I am doing on a consistent basis. So I know I am doing whatever it takes to keep going.
My parents have been sending money since the day I moved here , 8th feb , 2025
Now they are facing financial burden.
It’s been so long I am being unemployed. Why I am getting rejected … rejection from a job , rejection from a relationship , rejection from my family! Why ?
I am completely feeling like a failure , I have been facing stagnation in my life from years. I am not seeing any progress.
I am also facing financial stagnation since so long , I live in Pune , it’s an expensive city.
If I get a job , that issue would be solved but I am not even getting a job.
Can you please all pray to deliver me from unemployment & ask Lord to give me a job offer before April in a very well reputed company with an exceptional pay , great work life balance , growth culture with hybrid or remote work mode in Pune city ?
Also on 11th March… 2 days ago , the person I was in love with , with whom I decided to build a meaningful life together rejected me suddenly and told me not to keep any contact which shattered my heart into pieces.
It has impacted me mentally , physically & emotionally , for me this time is very important as I have been putting so many efforts since so long when it comes to get a job , now this separation has caused distraction.
I have no idea how enemy attacked me from all the sides in one time … destroyed my career , bond with my family , bond with the person I loved the most.
I am deeply hurt , shaken from within. Please please all pray for me & ask God to turn these obstacles into testimony.
I still remember it was May 02,2024 my birthday and I was feeling so proud of myself ( & my parents too ) that after so much struggle I managed to get a job and it was my dream role & I was working for 2 biz coaches ( loving , kind ) from UK & Uganda who also believe in Jesus
I was into international high ticket sales and organic marketing.
they were my biggest supporters , I grew so much because of them & I built highly valuable skills modeling their success .. and guess what! They even sent me my salary & extra money as a birthday gift.
Then I remember a day after my birthday , I didn’t receive any msg about my work tasks but I thought I know what to do on every day basis so I would start my work.
Then whole day there was no msg , on 4th may also no update , 2-3 days later … he took me on a zoom call and told me he is having health issues so need to take a break & money won’t come in business so he won’t be able to pay me.
When I asked when I will be able to work for you again … He mentioned once he gets recovered & things in business start working , I can continue.
I don’t know why but I believed that … I said no worries , I would wait.
Then I waited for next 6 months , I messaged and I got to know , he was still figuring things out.
So one day I asked , hey can you please give me a date as my parents have high expectations from me & how long I would keep waiting like this !
He said , honestly I don’t know but I am trying my best , it can be 1,3,6 months , 1 year I don’t know.
That was the day I decided I need to make a decision so we mutually agreed I should find a job here in my country India.
So I had to change my field , I decided to get into digital marketing & I started my digital marketing journey in feb 2025….
I was new to that field so I had to take one course , I had to leave my house & move to a different city which made me start everything from scratch when it comes to my career.
Previously also , even though I was into international high ticket sales and organic marketing , my main field was computer engineering that time also I had to learn everything from scratch about business field as I had only tech skills from engineering.
And later also , I had to learn everything about digital marketing as I mastered my skills into sales & organic marketing.
So why this pattern in my life ! Why near success syndrome?
I successfully finished that course , I understood everything about digital marketing & I was so excited to prepare for interviews , build resumes , apply for jobs & give interviews.
I have been studying since July 2025 , I started applying for jobs in dec 2025.
I have applied to many companies.
Now it’s march 13, 2026 ….. I have been facing rejections after rejections.
It’s so disappointing and discouraging to do the hardwork , study with focus on consistent basis & no desired outcome. I am feeling like giving up.
Forget about getting rejected in interviews… if it happens , I will understand may be I lacked some knowledge or experience so I can learn and improve but what’s the point of studying if I am not even getting a chance to give interviews as my resume is not getting shortlisted in the first place no matter what I do.
My parents , they believed in me , they sent me to another city thinking I deserve a chance to build my career.
So I am feeling deep guilt that I am not making them proud but I also know how much focused I am , how many sacrifices I am making to get a job , how much study I am doing on a consistent basis. So I know I am doing whatever it takes to keep going.
My parents have been sending money since the day I moved here , 8th feb , 2025
Now they are facing financial burden.
It’s been so long I am being unemployed. Why I am getting rejected … rejection from a job , rejection from a relationship , rejection from my family! Why ?
I am completely feeling like a failure , I have been facing stagnation in my life from years. I am not seeing any progress.
I am also facing financial stagnation since so long , I live in Pune , it’s an expensive city.
If I get a job , that issue would be solved but I am not even getting a job.
Can you please all pray to deliver me from unemployment & ask Lord to give me a job offer before April in a very well reputed company with an exceptional pay , great work life balance , growth culture with hybrid or remote work mode in Pune city ?
Also on 11th March… 2 days ago , the person I was in love with , with whom I decided to build a meaningful life together rejected me suddenly and told me not to keep any contact which shattered my heart into pieces.
It has impacted me mentally , physically & emotionally , for me this time is very important as I have been putting so many efforts since so long when it comes to get a job , now this separation has caused distraction.
I have no idea how enemy attacked me from all the sides in one time … destroyed my career , bond with my family , bond with the person I loved the most.
I am deeply hurt , shaken from within. Please please all pray for me & ask God to turn these obstacles into testimony.
