Ptech93
Disciple of Prayer
Time and time and time again, I have failed God. Sometimes, I can go without pornography for 3 weeks then next you thing know, I'm back on those websites with a face of shame. It's pure evil and I'm so weary and tired, people think that I'm a young good 19 year old Christian who's focused but I have struggle with this sin for a year. God can look in my heart and see that I'm ready for a change but somehow I keep sinning. God knows I'm willing but my flesh is so strong, and the devil knows my weakness. I'm tired, of all the reading, prayers, articles, etc. I'm still sinning. I'm ready for a change, please don't stop praying for me. Sometimes I think about suicide, sometimes I don't see my deliverance. I'm so sick to my stomach, I feel like I can't breath, and I feel like God hates me everyday. He's blessed me with a good paying job as a college student and sinning by watching pornography is the thanks he gets? I'm hurting right now guys, please just minister to my heart and pray that God will save me again and fill me with the Holy Spirit, please just hear me out.

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