Anonymous
Beloved of All
Thank you very much for so much mercy and love of God, God bless you in the name of Jesus. Before God and before you I recognize and confess all the following: that I have been fasting for two years, confessing, trying to forgive, bear loving this young pastor like Jesus but that I am not enough that I can not do more without Jesus Christ as my savior and Lord, that I invite him to come in and take his place, that I regret not having seen him and repented before, that thank you for the process in which my heart had to be broken to be freed from the idolatry of this young man, ((that my heart broke when I saw that this young man did not love me but my best friend and it hurts me a lot because it is true that we have all had to fight and overcome tests but each one of us is unique and special to God and if he did not love me the only thing I asked was that he not play with my heart or love me only temporarily because I despite the fact that 10 people sexually raped me and that my parents have mistreated each other and have mistreated you, I have tried to forgive and be a new not depressed person but hard worker, not victim but brave hard worker because I am already 30 years old and it hurts me a lot that this young pastor has not valued the effort that I have made to fast for me and for him for the healing of our wounds (because God allowed his mother to die and that he was left alone pastoring a church and in a very hard process in which he was alone and that is when he fell into fornication and I feel guilty because I did not believe that God could despite loving us if we fell, forgive us, heal us, understand us and allow us to be a marriage, so I asked him for time to recognize our lack of forgiveness and healing and to change in my forces to live a seemingly religious life but deep down in disbelief in the love and power and will and true plans of God to heal wounds so deep that they affected our mental health (both in my case and in that of this young pastor who even fainted from anxiety despite fasting and praying) to the point that we have fallen into disbelief or we have not believed in the love, forgiveness and restoration of God ending in bitterness and lack of forgiveness and independence from God for believing that God does not love us, because many times we complain that if God loved us why did he allow or protect us from the rapes and why did not he give him a Christian biological father and left him so alone and why did he let him fall into fornication and lack of forgiveness and lack of faith in the love of God and even so he demanded himself to continue pastoring until I said no to a relationship and he has been lost in fornication, adultery and prostitution. And the worst thing is because God gave me a word that this young man was going to be my husband and that I had to help him without falling into sexual temptation (but for me it was very difficult because I still had traumas from the unhealed sexual violations) being that we have both been so broken in faith towards God, because God did not give us brothers or pastors, or mental health, or work for pay us psychologists or psychiatrists to help us heal everything in time to prevent him from continuing to be tied to fornication and he and I to the lack of forgiveness and faith towards God for giving us non-Christian biological parents, who have not known or taught us the true love of God, which has caused us more wounds, more disbelief and more lack of forgiveness and independence, hatred towards God, until we fall into so much despair that we have believed that we are alone, that God does not love us, that God does not want us and that we are the only ones who have to protect us and provide for believing the lie that God does not love us, God does not want to help us, or believe the lie that God does not want or has not wanted to be or has not been able to be a good father for us or God has not wanted or has not been able to give us good parents, neither biological nor spiritual, so we have fallen into depending only on ourselves or in Satanism or independence, adultery, fornication, rebellion and hatred against God. And today I ask forgiveness from God and everyone on behalf of myself and this young pastor in the name of Jesus, I also confess that we are lost, we need God to forgive us and save us with his love and fatherhood and help us accept what we can not change, to regain faith in God in his love, forgiveness and restoration and stop playing with God and with sin and repent of our lack of forgiveness, faith, love towards God, towards ourselves and towards the people and institutions and / or systems around us. I pray that God have mercy on us and give us good His Salvation Fatherhood, that he once again conquer our hearts, spirits, souls, minds, plans, with his help and with his resources to understand and be conquered by God to surrender in everything possible as soon as possible and that God guide us and help us in everything, forgiveness to God for all this and I pray for mercy and true conviction of sin, judgment, justice and truth of God for me and this young man Pastor (### years old) and may God keep us from ourselves, from our hidden sins and from whatever God does not like, that He help us to want to change and to change, that He help us to let ourselves be helped by whomever God wants and by restoration communities, that God puts His hunger and thirst for it and boredom for sin and for sinning or the stubbornness of wanting to continue saving ourselves alone without God, (as our biological parents have tried), I pray that God conquers and helps us to want to change our hearts and helps us to forgive our infidelities towards Him and between us and to no longer destroy each other, not lie or deceive each other, not kill each other, not steal from each other anymore, but to understand and do in His Spirit and not in our charity, hatred, anger, pain, resentment, emotions, feelings, vanities, His will for both Him and me even if it is different.
Dear Living God I ask forgiveness for me and for this young pastor and all the people that have taking part in ours sins in/directly FOR all that I have written here and my privet fast during my live in the name of Jesus it is written if I/we confess our sins you can deliver me/us from anything, from anyone because it is writing that about Jesuschrist in Isaiah 53: Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? 2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. 3 He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem. 4 Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. 5 But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. 6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all. 7 He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before its shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. 8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away. Yet who of his generation protested? For he was cut off from the land of the living; for the transgression of my people he was punished. 9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death, though he had done no violence, nor was any deceit in his mouth. 10 Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the Lord makes his life an offering for sin, he will see his offspring and prolong his days, and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand. 11 After he has suffered, he will see the light of life and be satisfied; by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and he will bear their iniquities. 12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great, and he will divide the spoils with the strong, because he poured out his life unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors. For he bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors. For that it is writing I plied for your forgiveness Living Almighty God in the name of Jesus for what Jesus has made, has conquered. I ask for forgiveness us for depreciate my marriage with this young pastor because I tried to help him fasting interceding for two years without consent his sexual sins with me because I was afraid that you hate us for trying to be a partner without healing ours wounds, for what I asked him time until 2026 for fast, work and prepare us for marrying us according a call I think that I receive of you in 2023 and according to 1 Corinthians 7: Now for the matters you wrote about: ‘It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.’ 2 But since sexual immorality is occurring, each man should have sexual relations with his own wife, and each woman with her own husband. 3 The husband should fulfil his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. Living God I asked for forgiveness because I have a lot of fear to fail you for what I say him that first to restore us he can decide if yes or no come with me to a community of Jesus to be restored and after to marry us like after restoring our personal God's relationship, with His protection, with His Fatherhood, with his provision for our spiritual healing, power of the Holy Spirit to forgive, and people in spiritual, psychology, psychiatric authority to helps us to surrender and restore us to the Living God truly, I ask a new heart, that God can give us His forgiveness, His new life in the Spirit, everything to repent us, to leave the bad things because it's written: John 16:8-11 (New International Version - UK) 8 When he comes, he will prove the world to be in the wrong about sin and righteousness and judgment: 9 about sin, because people do not believe in me; 10 about righteousness, because I am going to the Father, where you can see me no longer; 11 and about judgment, because the prince of this world now stands condemned. God you Know everything, please give us more that we are asking because you are the King of kings the Lord of lords, big in mercy, love, forgiveness please forgive us, conquer and change us, because I believe in You God in Your Love, Mercy and Power and it's written in Ephesians 3:20 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen for what I plied all this, and that you can reveal us You, your paternity, your protection, your real love, power and grace I plied all this and You can control putting in us the will to do What you consider the best, give us faith, give us Jesus, give us the love faith and power to surrender ourself according to your good plans (what it's writing in Jeremiah 29:11, New International Version - UK, 11 For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ), I plied your protection even of ourselves, that you can help us to want to surrender to you by Your Faith and to do only and what you want by your Faith, with your Faith (please give more of your Faith, Spirit, guide, light, direction, revelation show us where we have to go, where we have to live, how to surrender our jobs, our interest, our desperation for your Love, Paternity, protection, provision, your Salvation, help us to forgive ourselves for failing you, I give you my control and fear of not failing you more Lord, help us to understand how to recognize, confess, solve of this thing, give us new heart, new mind, new personality, that believe and love and obey truly You Lord and give us authorities of You for this, in the Almighty name of Jesus Name please God, thanks 14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Ephesians 3:14-21)
Dear Living God I ask forgiveness for me and for this young pastor and all the people that have taking part in ours sins in/directly FOR all that I have written here and my privet fast during my live in the name of Jesus it is written if I/we confess our sins you can deliver me/us from anything, from anyone because it is writing that about Jesuschrist in Isaiah 53: Who has believed our message and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed? 2 He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. 3 He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain. Like one from whom people hide their faces he was despised, and we held him in low esteem. 4 Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. 5 But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. 6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to our own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all. 7 He was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before its shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. 8 By oppression and judgment he was taken away. Yet who of his generation protested? For he was cut off from the land of the living; for the transgression of my people he was punished. 9 He was assigned a grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death, though he had done no violence, nor was any deceit in his mouth. 10 Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer, and though the Lord makes his life an offering for sin, he will see his offspring and prolong his days, and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand. 11 After he has suffered, he will see the light of life and be satisfied; by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, and he will bear their iniquities. 12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great, and he will divide the spoils with the strong, because he poured out his life unto death, and was numbered with the transgressors. For he bore the sin of many, and made intercession for the transgressors. For that it is writing I plied for your forgiveness Living Almighty God in the name of Jesus for what Jesus has made, has conquered. I ask for forgiveness us for depreciate my marriage with this young pastor because I tried to help him fasting interceding for two years without consent his sexual sins with me because I was afraid that you hate us for trying to be a partner without healing ours wounds, for what I asked him time until 2026 for fast, work and prepare us for marrying us according a call I think that I receive of you in 2023 and according to 1 Corinthians 7: Now for the matters you wrote about: ‘It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.’ 2 But since sexual immorality is occurring, each man should have sexual relations with his own wife, and each woman with her own husband. 3 The husband should fulfil his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. Living God I asked for forgiveness because I have a lot of fear to fail you for what I say him that first to restore us he can decide if yes or no come with me to a community of Jesus to be restored and after to marry us like after restoring our personal God's relationship, with His protection, with His Fatherhood, with his provision for our spiritual healing, power of the Holy Spirit to forgive, and people in spiritual, psychology, psychiatric authority to helps us to surrender and restore us to the Living God truly, I ask a new heart, that God can give us His forgiveness, His new life in the Spirit, everything to repent us, to leave the bad things because it's written: John 16:8-11 (New International Version - UK) 8 When he comes, he will prove the world to be in the wrong about sin and righteousness and judgment: 9 about sin, because people do not believe in me; 10 about righteousness, because I am going to the Father, where you can see me no longer; 11 and about judgment, because the prince of this world now stands condemned. God you Know everything, please give us more that we are asking because you are the King of kings the Lord of lords, big in mercy, love, forgiveness please forgive us, conquer and change us, because I believe in You God in Your Love, Mercy and Power and it's written in Ephesians 3:20 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen for what I plied all this, and that you can reveal us You, your paternity, your protection, your real love, power and grace I plied all this and You can control putting in us the will to do What you consider the best, give us faith, give us Jesus, give us the love faith and power to surrender ourself according to your good plans (what it's writing in Jeremiah 29:11, New International Version - UK, 11 For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ), I plied your protection even of ourselves, that you can help us to want to surrender to you by Your Faith and to do only and what you want by your Faith, with your Faith (please give more of your Faith, Spirit, guide, light, direction, revelation show us where we have to go, where we have to live, how to surrender our jobs, our interest, our desperation for your Love, Paternity, protection, provision, your Salvation, help us to forgive ourselves for failing you, I give you my control and fear of not failing you more Lord, help us to understand how to recognize, confess, solve of this thing, give us new heart, new mind, new personality, that believe and love and obey truly You Lord and give us authorities of You for this, in the Almighty name of Jesus Name please God, thanks 14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. (Ephesians 3:14-21)
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
