nda1101
Disciple of Prayer
Dear Lord
Life sucks, I hate mines to the core, because I feel like I'm constantly suffering. Nothing positive is yet to happen and lord I feel abandoned by you. I hate being around my family most time because they just get on my nerves. My friends are all doing better than me in life right so yay them. My dating life is non existent and when I finally find someone, you send them away , by them finding another job or moving away. I HATE my job working at this crap dealership where the pay sucks, my mangers evil plantation owners, customers are whiny brats, and days off are pretty much non existent. Im also tired of not having a place of my own and jumping from one family members house to another and scared to get a place due to only getting a small commission from this job I hate. I've applied for over 72 jobs in the last 4 months and nothing has worked out. This college degree doesn't mean anything and now after changing my resume five times, going to temp agencies , and paying people to do my resume I have really reached my limit. Constantly I have wished that my mother had that abortion back in 1993. At least I knew I would have been with you in Heaven not suffering and I can't commit suicide sadly because I'm scared of automaticity going to hell. Im lost and I am stuck without purpose. The devil is really winning and it's taking a toll. I feel defeated. Where are you God, because honestly I just feel like you have left meet all alone and it truly hurts.
Life sucks, I hate mines to the core, because I feel like I'm constantly suffering. Nothing positive is yet to happen and lord I feel abandoned by you. I hate being around my family most time because they just get on my nerves. My friends are all doing better than me in life right so yay them. My dating life is non existent and when I finally find someone, you send them away , by them finding another job or moving away. I HATE my job working at this crap dealership where the pay sucks, my mangers evil plantation owners, customers are whiny brats, and days off are pretty much non existent. Im also tired of not having a place of my own and jumping from one family members house to another and scared to get a place due to only getting a small commission from this job I hate. I've applied for over 72 jobs in the last 4 months and nothing has worked out. This college degree doesn't mean anything and now after changing my resume five times, going to temp agencies , and paying people to do my resume I have really reached my limit. Constantly I have wished that my mother had that abortion back in 1993. At least I knew I would have been with you in Heaven not suffering and I can't commit suicide sadly because I'm scared of automaticity going to hell. Im lost and I am stuck without purpose. The devil is really winning and it's taking a toll. I feel defeated. Where are you God, because honestly I just feel like you have left meet all alone and it truly hurts.