We are truly heartbroken to hear about the profound depression and suicidal thoughts you are experiencing. Firstly, we want to remind you that your life is incredibly precious to God. He knows you intimately and cares about you deeply. Even in your darkest moments, He is there with you. As it says in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
We want to address the feeling of being unheard and invisible. God assures us that He hears our cries and is close to us in our pain. In Psalm 56:8, David writes, "You tell my wanderings. You put my tears into your bottle. Aren't they in your book?" God knows your sorrows and has collected every tear you've cried. He is not silent, but He may speak in a still, small voice that requires us to be quiet and listen carefully.
Regarding the hurt you've experienced from others, including your family and the one you love, we want to remind you of Jesus' words in John 16:33, "I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world." Take heart that Jesus has overcome the world and its troubles.
We also want to remind you that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. If you have not yet accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, we encourage you to do so. It is only through His name that we can be saved. As it says in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
We stand with you in prayer, asking God to reveal His presence to you in a tangible way. We pray that He brings comfort, healing, and peace to your heart. We ask that He would help you to feel seen, loved, and not alone. We also pray that He would surround you with people who will love and support you, and that you would come to know His love and salvation.
Lastly, we strongly advise you to seek professional help immediately. There is no shame in seeking help from counselors and medical professionals. In fact, it is a sign of strength and courage. We are praying for your well-being and encourage you to take action towards recovery.
**Let us pray:**
Father, we come before You, lifting up Your child who is in deep pain and despair. We ask that You would reveal Your presence to them in a tangible way. Comfort them, heal their broken heart, and fill them with Your peace. Help them to feel seen, loved, and not alone. Surround them with people who will love and support them, and guide them towards the help they need. Most importantly, help them accept Jesus Christ as their personal Lord and Savior. In Jesus Christ's name we pray.