Anonymous
Beloved of All
Debby,
Thank you very much. I know this hurt and makes get sad to other persons too except to the unbeliever.
God bless him but he is very sick.
I just was seeing the phone that I found of him that he used to buy to have calls and text the prostitutes and girls that he used every week in 2011.
Even I saw one that one woman just sent a text saying, Nice ring...like if he would have given a ring to her or sent a pic. next day they were going to meet each other.
Cheater even with them! Yes, how come he would say I am married!
And the fools believing in his hipocrisy too!
He is sick. Take drugs for his deficit of distraction. Get very anxious.
But right now girls and I are safe. At home for one more month because on December 3 we have the flight to Mty and I do not know if we are going to come back though he from June bought the tickets for us to visit the family on Christmas season.
He used to have different women at the same time.
Poor man but I feel that this is over and that the Lord has appointed this time to separate us.
I wait in the Lord and hope if he has in storage to do something about this or if this really is going to end in divorce.
It is up to the Lord after all.
I am happy now without him and have peace.
This has not been my fault nor my sins that did this.
Poor man after all. Lost and unhappy. Empty. Without love.
No one can make him happy.
He needs the True Love and that only comes when the Lord comes into our heart.
That is the piece that is missing in him.
He does not have heart.
But right now he is also going through other stuff like not knowing if he is gonna to continue working in his current job cause the contract ends on Dec.
He is thinking about his age and does not see that I can heal not this can change and also about his spiritual condition and test about Jesus and God Himself despite everything he struggles with that because denies Jesus as the Messiah and attach to that thinking of other Jewish people though he does not have nor feel true love for God not to follow or practice anything about traditions nor even keep the Shabbat when people does not see him.
God bless him, God blesses us.
I continue and have said to him what I knew must to say.
The message have been said to him despite everything and pointed out all what God hates and wants.
First the word and then God acts.
It is how the Lord works though I exactly do not know but I know that was my part.
I finished my task and yes I made sure that the Lord had him in his hand when I turned him out to our Father it was the reason when he mentioned divorce again I said, Yes, ok. Let's give you what you have been asking and working for from 2010.
I knew this was the time to face that and finally work out on that.
He have to learn now from the Lord and it is up to the Lord Himself if he decides that happen.
I am praying for guidance still while I go through wherever my Lord would be taking me through and my girls.
I talked with my girls and my youngest girl got angry but is when she is sad because she was attached to him and saw him as a father though he have not given all the love that he even if he would not be their father would do, with mercy and compassion for girls without father and more being my girls but he can show that to other person but not here and lately less!!!
I understand that llately due to his heart and of course our discutions and my fights asking for explanations and trying to put him where he must be but even like that he should be acting in true repentance and asking forgiveness and showing his true repentance but he did not do enough and as usual in him he started to run away trying to focus in things of himself and that either helped this. But now here we are, he and I and just God can change all this.
Change his heart to return to him first with all his heart and soul and really repent with all his heart. Then God can restore this, otherwise it cannot. His unclean spirit and sickness make this impossible because our spirits cannot let us be close.
I cannot do it. It is impossible, I cannot, it comes from my heart when I got in anger but not from my own heart at all...like that it is from my spirit and maybe and I can say that is the anger of the Lord in my spirit. I cannot stop it...I ahte when his things comes and that started...cause those things are worthy to bring them to his face because he is shameless and does not want to face them trying to put them in the past but it is for forgeting what he has done but without repentance. That is him. No heart. Just moves by his thinking like the beasts.
God give him a new heart and a new mind and I know that is the ultimate work of God and what he wants,
And the LORD your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your offspring, so that you will love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live. Devarim 30:6
and
And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26
This is what I know, this is what I believe, there is where my eyes are set because I want what I know with all my heart God, My God our everlasting God wants...I fought persuiting his desire...the desire of the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and is the reason I am here.
I came to take what God gave me and all what belongs to me and I said all those things to him so everything is said but I wait only for the Lord to fulfill what He have said through me.
That is all.
I am happy because I personally am resting without him here, in peace though I had my peace of the Lord while he was here finally because I left everything finally in the hands of our father when I turnned everything to Him.
Sorry if I explained too much but it has been too much that this is just the last things.
This started from 2011 in Cabo, San Lucas and just the last month I saw that I had arrived from that journey that I was taken by Jesus in order to find him and make him turn back.
Love you and thank you for praying for me, my girls and him.
I know you love me as I do.
Thank you for being there for me bacause without you and all your ears to hear what I share I would be feeling bad though I am with my father and God but yes before I had no one to share or talk and I needed so much and felt a little bad but I accepted and tried to comfort myself knowing that God was enough and I had to accept it because was my time with Him alone.
Thank you.
Thank you very much. I know this hurt and makes get sad to other persons too except to the unbeliever.
God bless him but he is very sick.
I just was seeing the phone that I found of him that he used to buy to have calls and text the prostitutes and girls that he used every week in 2011.
Even I saw one that one woman just sent a text saying, Nice ring...like if he would have given a ring to her or sent a pic. next day they were going to meet each other.
Cheater even with them! Yes, how come he would say I am married!
And the fools believing in his hipocrisy too!
He is sick. Take drugs for his deficit of distraction. Get very anxious.
But right now girls and I are safe. At home for one more month because on December 3 we have the flight to Mty and I do not know if we are going to come back though he from June bought the tickets for us to visit the family on Christmas season.
He used to have different women at the same time.
Poor man but I feel that this is over and that the Lord has appointed this time to separate us.
I wait in the Lord and hope if he has in storage to do something about this or if this really is going to end in divorce.
It is up to the Lord after all.
I am happy now without him and have peace.
This has not been my fault nor my sins that did this.
Poor man after all. Lost and unhappy. Empty. Without love.
No one can make him happy.
He needs the True Love and that only comes when the Lord comes into our heart.
That is the piece that is missing in him.
He does not have heart.
But right now he is also going through other stuff like not knowing if he is gonna to continue working in his current job cause the contract ends on Dec.
He is thinking about his age and does not see that I can heal not this can change and also about his spiritual condition and test about Jesus and God Himself despite everything he struggles with that because denies Jesus as the Messiah and attach to that thinking of other Jewish people though he does not have nor feel true love for God not to follow or practice anything about traditions nor even keep the Shabbat when people does not see him.
God bless him, God blesses us.
I continue and have said to him what I knew must to say.
The message have been said to him despite everything and pointed out all what God hates and wants.
First the word and then God acts.
It is how the Lord works though I exactly do not know but I know that was my part.
I finished my task and yes I made sure that the Lord had him in his hand when I turned him out to our Father it was the reason when he mentioned divorce again I said, Yes, ok. Let's give you what you have been asking and working for from 2010.
I knew this was the time to face that and finally work out on that.
He have to learn now from the Lord and it is up to the Lord Himself if he decides that happen.
I am praying for guidance still while I go through wherever my Lord would be taking me through and my girls.
I talked with my girls and my youngest girl got angry but is when she is sad because she was attached to him and saw him as a father though he have not given all the love that he even if he would not be their father would do, with mercy and compassion for girls without father and more being my girls but he can show that to other person but not here and lately less!!!
I understand that llately due to his heart and of course our discutions and my fights asking for explanations and trying to put him where he must be but even like that he should be acting in true repentance and asking forgiveness and showing his true repentance but he did not do enough and as usual in him he started to run away trying to focus in things of himself and that either helped this. But now here we are, he and I and just God can change all this.
Change his heart to return to him first with all his heart and soul and really repent with all his heart. Then God can restore this, otherwise it cannot. His unclean spirit and sickness make this impossible because our spirits cannot let us be close.
I cannot do it. It is impossible, I cannot, it comes from my heart when I got in anger but not from my own heart at all...like that it is from my spirit and maybe and I can say that is the anger of the Lord in my spirit. I cannot stop it...I ahte when his things comes and that started...cause those things are worthy to bring them to his face because he is shameless and does not want to face them trying to put them in the past but it is for forgeting what he has done but without repentance. That is him. No heart. Just moves by his thinking like the beasts.
God give him a new heart and a new mind and I know that is the ultimate work of God and what he wants,
And the LORD your God will circumcise your heart and the heart of your offspring, so that you will love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul, that you may live. Devarim 30:6
and
And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26
This is what I know, this is what I believe, there is where my eyes are set because I want what I know with all my heart God, My God our everlasting God wants...I fought persuiting his desire...the desire of the Father, Jesus and the Holy Spirit and is the reason I am here.
I came to take what God gave me and all what belongs to me and I said all those things to him so everything is said but I wait only for the Lord to fulfill what He have said through me.
That is all.
I am happy because I personally am resting without him here, in peace though I had my peace of the Lord while he was here finally because I left everything finally in the hands of our father when I turnned everything to Him.
Sorry if I explained too much but it has been too much that this is just the last things.
This started from 2011 in Cabo, San Lucas and just the last month I saw that I had arrived from that journey that I was taken by Jesus in order to find him and make him turn back.
Love you and thank you for praying for me, my girls and him.
I know you love me as I do.
Thank you for being there for me bacause without you and all your ears to hear what I share I would be feeling bad though I am with my father and God but yes before I had no one to share or talk and I needed so much and felt a little bad but I accepted and tried to comfort myself knowing that God was enough and I had to accept it because was my time with Him alone.
Thank you.
