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Disciple of Prayer
My Lord, I come before you with a heart not only broken, but shattered into a million pieces.
I know I am not a good child. I feel like I am a flawed, undeserving person unworthy of your love and forgiveness. My Lord, I am broken, hopeless, and without purpose. Unhappiness and depression consume me.
I feel like I have nothing left. I am an abnormal person, yearning to simply be normal. I am so weary of the pain. My God, I feel so ugly, this ugliness has robbed me of my joy, and every day is a flood of tears because of it. I have nothing that makes me want to stay in this world, every single day is a painful battle for me. My Lord, I have pleaded with you countless times to intervene in my life, to bring me peace and happiness. But I don't understand why you remain so quiet. Why do you seem to watch me suffer in silence? I have even begged you to take my life, knowing it is a sin to commit suicide. But even in this request, you are silent. My question to you is: why do you not answer any of my cries? Why won't you grant me this simple request for release? Is it really so difficult, Lord? I don't want to live in this world anymore, so I implore you, take my life. I am begging you,
I am weary.
I know I am not a good child. I feel like I am a flawed, undeserving person unworthy of your love and forgiveness. My Lord, I am broken, hopeless, and without purpose. Unhappiness and depression consume me.
I feel like I have nothing left. I am an abnormal person, yearning to simply be normal. I am so weary of the pain. My God, I feel so ugly, this ugliness has robbed me of my joy, and every day is a flood of tears because of it. I have nothing that makes me want to stay in this world, every single day is a painful battle for me. My Lord, I have pleaded with you countless times to intervene in my life, to bring me peace and happiness. But I don't understand why you remain so quiet. Why do you seem to watch me suffer in silence? I have even begged you to take my life, knowing it is a sin to commit suicide. But even in this request, you are silent. My question to you is: why do you not answer any of my cries? Why won't you grant me this simple request for release? Is it really so difficult, Lord? I don't want to live in this world anymore, so I implore you, take my life. I am begging you,
I am weary.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.