seekingpeacenhappiness
Humble Servant of All
First of all Thank you for this day, I know that if I am still on this earth I have a purpose to fulfill...I am a roller coaster of emotions father. I do not want to be torn or divided I know that is a sin. I want and seek all that is you there is no doubt about that desire, I have faith in you father, and as much as I know what i desire, my flesh has only proven to be weak. I ask that you forgive me, I know that every trial has a purpose and with you by my side who could be against me but myself. Father let me see through your eyes, let me have the discipline to have the life that you have intended for me to have. Let me see your purpose for me on this earth...One of my feelings today is anger please calm me father, I want to feel your peace inside rebuke all evil from me my life. You have given me so much that i have asked for but have I done right by what you have given me. You say ask and you shall receive, I know sometimes your answer could be NO or we get it not exactly how we expected it and I the answer could be right in my face. I feel like such a fool, making foolish decisions I ask for forgiveness...I will say father I cant distinguish if what I felt was guilt or anxiety or non-discernment...Fill me with all that is you. I see you in sooooooo many areas of my life, father and this one thing has been such a blurrrrrr for so long now. Is it really affecting my child now. What do I do father, show me the way. Hold me close, don't let go. Hold me near so I do not fear...Faith the size of a mustard seed huh...well its bigger than that in all that is you, but this world we live in father if only everyone myself included had eyes and heart wide open and were transparent of all inadequacies this way we could decide the ones we could live with and live without. Perhaps I am missing the whole picture, my desire is all of you father, but how I would love to have a spouse here on earth. A husband who understands his role as you have commanded, so I may be supporting wife to follow his lead. To give my girls the example of what a family under the provisions you have set forth is...to feel your goodness and happiness of having you as head coach in charge, king of all kings. Father my mami, is in your hands...She has faith to fill two football stadiums may your will allow her many many many more years so that my grand babies will get to know their great grandma. Thank for listening to me right now father....talk to you later...In the name of Jesus, the blood of Jesus over this home and this request...father please bless the readers and prayers of this request and before I forget, please look over lil Alex, the prayer request i received to fight sin, be closer to you, and resist temptation, open this door for aly she would really like this move to happen, and she has always been willing to help as an open ear, or any way she can. protect and guide all the women and families in my groups. Give Omar success on this day....May my sister be at peace and get all she desires to get. In the name of Jesus I pray. AMEN!!!
