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Humble Servant
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Please Lord Jesus, I beg you to guide me through this difficult phase. I have been going into depression and I can see its effects on me and my attitude towards my husband. I just want to be by myself most of the time, I cry every now and then, I pick up fights with my husband for no reason. And I am hating all this. I love my husband a lot and he is the best gift you have blessed me with and I thank you so much for this blessing. But please help me find a job that you know I will be able to give my best to, something that I can use the skills I have been blessed with. Please don't make me feel that I am useless and that nothing good can come from me, because all these feelings just bring one thought to my mind that if I am not capable enough to help my husband financially and will be a burden on him all the time, it's better I just end my life so that I don't have to live with this guilt of being a burden on him. He is the sweetest person and supports me and makes me understand that I will find a job and not to worry, but I no longer am strong enough and feel like I have no right to sit at home when he goes to work and keeps me happy all the time. I beg you, my Lord, to bless me with a decent job with a reasonable pay, a job that I can do with the skills I am blessed with. Sometimes I feel all my studies and work experience overseas is just useless in this place. Bless me, Lord, so that I don't have to take a step that leaves my parents and husband devastated. Please give me courage, Lord. My mother says to leave everything in your hand and has full hope in you that you will give me a good job, but I guess I am not strong enough. Please bless me, Lord.

